Jesus high or mania?!??!?!?!?

I feel amaing! im still not sleeping miuch on the 1200mg gabapentin but im not really tired im wide awake! I want to run through the streets screaming the name of Jesus to everyone and nayone I can help save and give them thegospel. theres not time for sleep!!!!!! I feel amazing!!!

yesterday I cried and cried and was triggered by ptsd crap but not today! rodayu im healed and better anf feel great and no longer feel bad!!

i just texted my t to tell her how amainf i feel lol

hope she doesn't mind

Sounds like mania to me. When I was religious I would become super-religious when manic. Be careful as I lost friends this way as I would not shut up about Jesus. It wasn't like that all the time when I was religious, only when manic did I go way over the top. I also believed God healed me of mental illness and gave my testimony so when I became ill again I was in denial as I was still convinced I was healed. When I finally had a breakdown everything fell apart and I lost friends. I felt like such an idiot giving what was a false testimony. Some Christians judged me as having done something wrong as I 'lost' my healing. It broke my heart and I lost my faith.
Not to scare you though. I hope you can keep your faith in a balanced way. Take care

Im more calm this am. I went to bed around 3:30 and back up at 8. I spent a lot money on music on iTunes last night that I odnt have. ive spent a lot of money lately.

luckily maybe t didn't get the text I sent lol she might not like it! I stayed up listening to music on youtube for hours

I don't think im manic. im not crazy hyper right now

I think maybe you should call your pdoc and get some sleep. It's nice to feel good, but you sound manic.

I cant sleep! its a waste of time and besides Im wide awake. I took 1200mg of gabapentin last night and nothing!!! rocking out some more dc talk!

my t never responded to my text lol im not supposed tot ext her I don't think but I sent it at 2am so maybe she didn't get it

You should talk to your doctor, you sound possibly hypomanic.

Eh I see my t on thursday. What's my dr gonna do? Lol

Hallie dear you sound at least hypomanic. I think the title of your thread indicates you must be aware of this on some level. The religious impulse-- to run in the streets and screaming the name of jesus-- is that something you would normally even think of doing? And the overspending of money you don't have-- that's a huge red flag for me that I'm hypomanic. I hope you will share all this with your t. Please be safe.

No I wouldn't normally do that but im having a spiritual awakening that's so hard to explain but its REAL!!!

I see my t on thursday

Advise you on what to do and/or adjust your meds.

I see her Januray 6th!

Im so free and amazing feeling but im so anxious too

You sound very manic.

I cant stop singing. He has to know I love him. I have to sing. My jaw hurts bbut I cant stop! I love singing!!!

I agree with Bard. And you don't really need to be crazy hyper all the time to be hypomanic or manic.

When I feel clam I feel anxious like amped up inside

I called dbt phone coaching to see how to deal with this inner amped up feeling cause its driving me nuts. im waiting for her to call back

I did t know what to tell her and she said I was talking too fast to understand. She asked if me feeling not normal was something I wanted to change and I got confused and said I guess so. She said to go bk and do mindfulness to ground. She's gonna tell my therapist what's going on.

Idk why I called. I was jumbled

I got tired so I thought I'd try for some sleep but my little cousin will not be quiet and it's starting to piss me off!!!

She's seven and shod be in bed.

Gah!!!!!!!!!!

This sounds like me a month ago, now I am at a low point. My pdoctor has changed some mood stablizer since and I am hoping for more stable moods. As people above pointed out mania feels great but causes problems especially in relationships and financial.

I eventually fell asleep and slept all night! That's wasted time I could have been online

Sounds like things are calming down.

Well I only felt the high for two days so it cant be mania!