[Pastel Kitten]

I don't really know what's going on with me lately. I feel depressed but riled up at the same time in terms of extreme anxiety. Tons of paranoia. I don't want to sleep at night because I feel like something bad will happen to me if I do. This has been happening for the past week or so and I'm really not sure what to do or what is even happening. Could this be mixed hypomania of some sort..? Normally when I'm depressed, I want to sleep the majority of the day and feel very tired, unlike now. I just want this feeling of impending doom to go away.

[Amy Today]

I have these episodes sometimes, too. It feels like mania because I can't sleep, I'm wired and anxious. And it feels like depression because I'm exhausted, unhappy, and sluggish. The last time this happened to me was about a month ago and my pdoc gave me clonazepam to bring the anxiety down and it really helped so I could focus on coping with the depression. That's the only thing that has really worked for me.

[Pastel Kitten]

My pdoc prescribed me saphris which was supposed to help with the anxiety but it worsened it a lot. I see her in a week and I think I want to ask her for valium. I was on it once before and it seemed to really help. I just really, really hate this. I feel like I'm walking on thin ice each day now.

Originally Posted by Amy Today

The last time this happened to me was about a month ago and my pdoc gave me clonazepam to bring the anxiety down and it really helped so I could focus on coping with the depression.

Exactly..I can't focus on coping with the depression while so anxious. It's awful

[Imah]

I can't answer your question. I also have those episodes I refer to them as: Maniacal depression. Not mania + depression - but maniacally depressed.

I had a mixed episode back in November and ended up in the hospital. I felt just like you are feeling now. I was self medicating with alcohol (which only made me more depressed) and weed (which only made me more paranoid). I was also taking a lot of klonopin and it didn't help my anxiety at all. It was a scary experience. I'm still recovering from it.

I hope this eases up for you soon.

[Mountainbard]

This sure sounds like a mixed episode to me... the depression along with anxiety, paranoia, and agitation. Any way you can get your pdoc to see you before next week? Even if you can't you'll see him/her in a week. Maybe try to do some things you find soothing in the meantime? I hope things get better for you soon.

[Pastel Kitten]

Sadly no. The earliest I can see her is the 4th so I'm just going to have to pull through this somehow. I made myself go to bed last night despite fearing it so much and did sleep a normal amount, but I still feel so incredibly exhausted. The tiredness seems to be there primarily at the beginning of the day and by night I feel both awake and tired at the same time. My dreams have been really strange, too. Last night I dreamt the government was after me and they put me in jail for no real reason, several times. I broke out of jail to discover I had some sort of tumor and the doctors weren't able to help me with it. Lots of paranoia and anxiety in my dreams too. I just want to run away so desperately but it's with me no matter where I go or what I'm doing..