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Jun 20, 2007, 01:15 PM
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It happened again...
I've been doing so well that my T and I agreed to stop having regularly scheduled sessions. And then my Pdoc and I agreed to decrease the frequency of checkups and also reduce the amount of effexor I'm taking. So when all has been going great for several months... WHAM! I made an impulsive action last night that has sent me into the darkest pits of despair. This ALWAYS happens and there is NO getting away from it. I just want it to STOP. What's worse is I don't think my spouse will be able to put up with it for much longer. I imagine my life separated and not being able to see the kids but 2 weekends a month or something, and how terrible that is. I could not stand it. I love them so much that I would be tortured to death 1,000,000 times over just to ensure they have a happy and healthy life. It's like it's not a question of if it will happen, but when. How could anyone put up with someone like me? I am an unpredictable waste of life. What I wouldn't give for a shut of some powerful drug right now. 
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Jun 20, 2007, 02:04 PM
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I was doing well for 5 YEARS when I had an episode & did a very rash & dangerous thing. I was so shocked & ashamed. I'm back to seeing my pdoc every 2 weeks. She's adjusted my meds some. I feel for you. It seems like these episodes come out of the blue, but I'm learning what are danger signs to me so I can hopefully head another episode off at the pass. Take care.--Suzy
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Jun 23, 2007, 12:13 AM
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I'm sorry it hit you out of now where...
Not that I hope that you end up separated...just wanted to let you know that that other visiting schedules are available...I have my children 3 of the 7 days a week...Just don't want you worrying to much about this... If there is anything I can do to help...please let me know.
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Jun 23, 2007, 10:00 PM
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so sorry don't know what else to say but i do feel for you and i am here if you need to vent. your not worthless no matter what you have done.!!!!!!!!!!!!-onyx
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