[SingDanceRunLife]

I decided after a week of classes this semester that I just couldn't do it, so I withdrew. I changed my meds, and things were going really well...but then probably about 3 weeks ago, things started going downhill again, and I know it's my bipolar rearing its ugly head. Like my title says, I'm feeling out of whack.

I don't feel balanced. I feel depressed but also slightly manic. I'm having major mood swings. I'm crying more than usual. I just don't feel myself, and I think a large part of it is that change is coming, and I don't do well with change, even good change...but I just need help holding it together for another 4 weeks (that's when I'll be moved back home and see my T again).

Anyone else feeling out of whack?

[bipolardigest]

Hi,

I have days when I feel out of sync, but you have to remember everyone has both good and bad days. Another thing is you changed your medication so that could be playing a role as your body adapts. Anyways, check in with your doctor and let them know what's going on. I would do it as soon as possible so you can find out if it's the meds which need to be adjusted.

I am here to support you and wish you the best. It's normal to feel out of it, but you have to keep a positive mind always.

[SingDanceRunLife]

I'm going to hold off on any possible med changes until I see my real pdoc. I've had an interim one, the only one who could fit me in on short notice, and the only one willing to treat me from a distance, and it'll only be about a month until I can see my real pdoc again. I'm really hoping I don't need another med change...that would make 3 within a year!

[gayleggg]

I know what you mean about med changes. I hate going through them. I'm going through one now and am feeling off. I'm not sure the new one is working and it's making me sick at my stomach.

I hope you get to feeling better soon.

Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Sorry you feel this way. Can you call your pdoc and get your meds adjusted? I started trileptal as a stabilizer and felt so good that I stopped my anxiety meds. Big mistake. I learned the importance of having my meds balanced and I'm trying really hard not to lose another job because of my anxiety. Good luck to you and I hope you get "right" soon!

[Mountainbard]

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. Change is definitely triggering for most of us. I hope you can hold it together until you get home. But I also hope you'll reach out to your therapist or a local mental health provider if need be. I'm sending you some good energy.

[SingDanceRunLife]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Sorry you feel this way. Can you call your pdoc and get your meds adjusted? I started trileptal as a stabilizer and felt so good that I stopped my anxiety meds. Big mistake. I learned the importance of having my meds balanced and I'm trying really hard not to lose another job because of my anxiety. Good luck to you and I hope you get "right" soon!

I don't want to mess with my meds right now because I'm going back to my regular pdoc when I move back home. The pdoc I have right now was a last resort and I've only seen him once, back in May. I think it's better to wait it out until I can see my actual pdoc who knows my history and can pull everything up etc...and I'm sure I can make an appointment with her within a week of my move.

Originally Posted by Mountainbard

I'm sorry you're having such a difficult time. Change is definitely triggering for most of us. I hope you can hold it together until you get home. But I also hope you'll reach out to your therapist or a local mental health provider if need be. I'm sending you some good energy.

I have no one here to reach out to. I tried and failed at finding both a pdoc and T here, so I have neither. And I can't call my T because she's on vacation until the day I move back home...

[Unrigged64072835]

Change and stress can usually throw us. It's just a temporary thing, though. I hope you can get through this and feel better soon.

[SingDanceRunLife]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Change and stress can usually throw us. It's just a temporary thing, though. I hope you can get through this and feel better soon.

I am definitely stressed. Even if I don't feel stressed, I can tell when I am because I get this weird red almost rash like thing on my nose that's dry and burns...and once the stress goes away, it goes away. It started years ago so I'm used to it. It does make wearing makeup hard though.

If you changed your meds, the honeymoon phase is over and it sounds like you need to make an adjustment in increasing the dose to reach the therapeutic level for you. I'm sorry that you are in limbo over the med changes, Doctor appointments, and life but hopefully it'll come together for you soon enough.

[SingDanceRunLife]

I don't think my body could handle more drugs...they're tough enough on me as it is! I just have to get through the next few weeks and then I can figure out a plan, and hopefully that plan will work.

[SingDanceRunLife]

Had a panic attack today...I used to get them all the time, now they're rare...so I know something's up.

[SingDanceRunLife]

Today I felt kind of normal...and that felt weird. I mean, I'd like it to continue, but one doesn't usually just come out of this kind of funk just like that. Ya know?

[SingDanceRunLife]

Ok...so I was watching Private Practice...and I bawled. Dell died and I bawled. TV shows and movies never make me cry unless I'm severely messed up. And I'm not sleeping like I should be either...bad things...

[SingDanceRunLife]

I thought making myself look better would make me feel better...so I got my brows done, and while I'm glad I did it because I've been meaning to forever, I still look at myself and see sadness and emptiness in my eyes. I don't want to be sad and empty.