[wiretwister]

up the last two nights ... dead tired ... head feels like it is going to explode ... but I don't want to sleep ... keep downloading my little korean girl ... at 55 gigs now and going strong ... I think I must have an addictive personality ... or just crazy as hell ... spent all day watching old korean tv shows shes in ... I really may have lost it this time ...

[jacky8807]

Gotta make yourself sleep somehow Tigger or things could get bad!
Are you still doing meds I forget
Your Korean gal will still be there in the am promise

[wiretwister]

yes I have even increased the lamictal ... I'm trying to sleep ... cure you internet .....

[jacky8807]

Step AWAY from the kpop ! Lol
Sleep....who knew it could be this complicated?

[wiretwister]

I will leave my kpop when you pry my cold dead fingers from my keyboard ...

[jacky8807]

OK but don't blame me when the news story get out how they found you stiff and cold next to 898 hours of kpop on youtube

[wiretwister]

what a way to go ..... kpoped to death ..... would they have to do my funeral in korean .. ?

[wiretwister]

or bury me in a kimshe pot ... (i know it's spelt wrong)

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

OK but don't blame me when the news story get out how they found you stiff and cold next to 898 hours of kpop on youtube

by the way ... it's 899 hours .... there was a special for christmas ...

[wiretwister]

going to bomb myself now ... wish me luck ...

[Imah]

Sometimes I feel like the mood I get in is like centripetal motion. I feel like I am stuck on flush in a toilet, and getting out is an uphill battle I don't have the strength to do. Because going down, down, down feels soooo good.

Your stuck in an eddy where you feel really good in your obsession even though you can look at it from outside yourself and see that it is not healthy for you. But it feels so good.

The problem is, it is good for you to feel these emotions. But instead of being happy and healthy about it, which would help to guarantee them to stay in your life - you are allowing the actions to destroy any chance of being able to be in your future, or being able to continue to work. Your abusing your outlet, creating guilt feelings that you are storing up for future.

You have robbed yourself of deep satisfying emotions for decades. Of course you now will indulge. But your so smart and you know exactly the problem. You NEED to feel. So use this outlet you have discovered and offer yourself the future enjoyment by incorporating it into your life in a healthier way.

You also know these are signs of a future fall if you take it too far. You have GOT to start pacing yourself.

You deserve the happiness you feel.

[jacky8807]

You deserve a Korean medal of Honor for the hours you put in!

I like the bi bim bop however you spell it...wait or is that thai food??

Good luck sleeping. May kpop soak your dreams tonight

[brokenandalone1234]

I know how you feel. It sounds like you may be in a manic moment. Usually in mine I can force myself to sleep but it's never a deep sleep and I wake up feeling tired. In fact I have more manic days then days in depression so I am tired all day every day. My manic days are self induced by **** loads of caffinne.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by Imah

Sometimes I feel like the mood I get in is like centripetal motion. I feel like I am stuck on flush in a toilet, and getting out is an uphill battle I don't have the strength to do. Because going down, down, down feels soooo good.

Your stuck in an eddy where you feel really good in your obsession even though you can look at it from outside yourself and see that it is not healthy for you. But it feels so good.

The problem is, it is good for you to feel these emotions. But instead of being happy and healthy about it, which would help to guarantee them to stay in your life - you are allowing the actions to destroy any chance of being able to be in your future, or being able to continue to work. Your abusing your outlet, creating guilt feelings that you are storing up for future.

You have robbed yourself of deep satisfying emotions for decades. Of course you now will indulge. But your so smart and you know exactly the problem. You NEED to feel. So use this outlet you have discovered and offer yourself the future enjoyment by incorporating it into your life in a healthier way.

You also know these are signs of a future fall if you take it too far. You have GOT to start pacing yourself.

You deserve the happiness you feel.

I bow to the most wise one .... god your dead on .. Ty ..

[furiousfever]

Im a total obsesser. I run in circles in my head compulsively when I'm not well. I take on one thing (like your Kpop) with the fervor of an army. I totally feel you!
Good luck with sleep!

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[Hashi/bipolar mom]

When do you see your pdoc again? I'm worried about you!

[Nammu]

Don't cha wish sometimes that you were a cartoon so you could just hit yourself with a big oversized hammer (kpow) and fall into bed fast asleep? Of course then you'd wake with stars and birdies flying in a circle around yer head, might not be worth it.

[Hashi/bipolar mom]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Don't cha wish sometimes that you were a cartoon so you could just hit yourself with a big oversized hammer (kpow) and fall into bed fast asleep? Of course then you'd wake with stars and birdies flying in a circle around yer head, might not be worth it.

That made me laugh! LOL

[gina_re]

My Lamictal was increased for my depression. But ever since that happened I can't sleep. I don't know if my restoril has to be increased as well since that's my sleep med. I'm just annoyed and hating me not being able to fall asleep like I could before. Pdoc is definitely getting an email. It's been like this for a week...

*hugs*.....

[Keegan2015]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Don't cha wish sometimes that you were a cartoon so you could just hit yourself with a big oversized hammer (kpow) and fall into bed fast asleep? Of course then you'd wake with stars and birdies flying in a circle around yer head, might not be worth it.

Believe it or not, this actually exists, it's called "alcohol."

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by Keegan2015

Believe it or not, this actually exists, it's called "alcohol."

[Disorder7]

Benadryl.
It's approved off label for anxiety because it will make you calm and drowsy.
In fact, when Seroquel is used at low doses, like 25mg, it's basically just a strong antihistamine. It hits the same receptors as stuff like Benadryl.

Take care.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by Disorder7

Benadryl.
It's approved off label for anxiety because it will make you calm and drowsy.
In fact, when Seroquel is used at low doses, like 25mg, it's basically just a strong antihistamine. It hits the same receptors as stuff like Benadryl.

Take care.

my "bomb" consists of , trazadone .. xanex .. benadryl .. in unspecified amounts ... but I only use it when absolutly no other way ... have ambien but has never worked for me ... I also have geodon ,but I hate the stuff and would be dying before I would use it again ... my record is 24 benadryl ,,, but that's another story ...

[Hashi/bipolar mom]

Originally Posted by Disorder7

Benadryl.
It's approved off label for anxiety because it will make you calm and drowsy.
In fact, when Seroquel is used at low doses, like 25mg, it's basically just a strong antihistamine. It hits the same receptors as stuff like Benadryl.

Take care.

The problem with all antihistamines is weight gain! I'm currently taking 200mg of over the counter sleep meds (main ingredient is what Benydryl is made of). When my doctor found out she about flipped. We are trying to get me off of it and even strong benzodiazepines can't compete!