[Keegan2015]

I've been somewhat hypomanic over the last 2 weeks, I met with my pdoc yesterday and he increased my lithium from 600mg to 900mg. I thought that the distractibility and aloofness I had been experiencing were due to starting lithium a few weeks ago but my doctor insisted that this was actually a symptom of my hypomania all along.

Anyway, I've been having racing thoughts and feeling very anxious lately -- so much that I've been finding myself needing to step away from my desk for a couple of minutes a couple of times throughout the day just to take a quick lap around the building and get out of my negative thought bubble and refocus.

Toward the end of the day today my supervisor mentioned that someone from a satellite office had complained that I didn't adhere to their dress code last week when I had been sent there to assist with something for a couple of hours (apparently they don't observe casual Fridays like my office does) ... My supervisor was really nice about it and seemed to feel a bit uncomfortable about bringing it up in the first place buttttt this fairly innocuous criticism really pissed me off.

Like, I know this is really silly to get worked up about but I am really really annoyed that whoever sent the email didn't contact me directly and instead went directly to my supervisor AND not to mention the only reason I was in the satellite location in the first place was to help cover for someone else. The complaint just seems petty and inappropriate to me.

This has been in the back of my mind all evening and I've kind of been brooding/ruminating over it because I have to go to the same satellite office again tomorrow.

Stupid little things like that really get under my skin when I'm hypomanic. Just wanted to vent a little bit and see if anyone could relate.

Random other hypomanic crap I've done over the past few days:
-Bought $70 worth of guitar strings when I really only needed 1-2 sets.
-Been planning trips abroad and "worst case scenario" contingency plans for what I'll do if I leave my current job.
-Obsessing over bad memories from the past.
-Feeling infatuated by people who are only (at best) acquaintances.

[Victoria'smom]

Hopefully Work stuff stops and meds help.

[pirilin]

I hear you.
Most of the stuff happens to me too. Only I never have a contingency plan.
Hope you do all right with the Lithium @ 900mg.

[gina_re]

I don't have any advice right now, but I can definitely relate to that. I would be pissed off too if that happened to me. Is it really that serious that you have go above me about something as petty as what pants or shirt I'm wearing when I'm doing you a favor?! Good luck tomorrow!

I get like that all the time. Ruminating et cetera. I'll obsess over a conversation, and it will loop and loop in my head. Work can really trigger it.
I never really saw it as hypomania but I guess that's what it is. This month has been ****** and I get teary and stuck in my head all the time.

And you should wear one of those tuxedo shirts when you go to the satellite office.
Advice wise- I see nothing wrong with contingency plans. Sometimes it's fun to think of what you would do, where you would go.
Remember that all of this is just temporary.
You should watch Office Space this weekend if you haven't seen it already.

[CycloMary]

I had a week & 1/2 of major anxiety. I ended up having a panic attack.
I have had mixed moods & depression. Very little normal moods.
Now I am battling panic attacks.
I spoke with my doc & he wants me to go up to 1200mg Li. He thinks it's just my BP causing the panic & I need more.

I don't know but it better help or I'm coming off. I can't keep having panic attacks at work.
It's making me scared & sad all the time.

I hope your moods level out.
Forget what some tattle tale punk has to say. You weren't in the wrong.
Chin up & move on.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Hey Keegan. You always have great posts. Now we need to focus on you.
Crap on the dummy who ratted you out on casual Friday's.

I'm glad you have a job. You are way ahead of the 8 ball.

Find something to distract you from ruminating. TV. Movie. Outdoors. Trip to a Zoo.
Interrupt. That's the trick.

You are in baby stages of mania. Keep it there so you don't buy 200 Barbie dolls and sleep with the gardener. Ha ha.

[BipolaRNurse]

"Baby stages of mania". I like that. It's where I'm at too.

[Keegan2015]

Thank you everyone for your responses and words of support, it is so refreshing and encouraging to hear. "Baby mania" is a good way of describing it hahaha. The lithium increase has seemed to help a bit too.