[BlueInanna]

I wouldn't call this a crash. Actually a fairly smooth landing compared to others I've had. I wish I could take this day to rest in bed. I don't feel well. Exhausted after the hypo, plus the extra seroquel to keep full on mania away feels taxing on my body, gives me tummy probs too.

Already planned this day away from office to take care of some DMV appointments. I can do it. I have to. Going to get my drivers license replaced, take daughter to driver test she failed last time, look for my son down in town he has the drivers license test today too. I haven't heard from him in several days. He's 20 with drug probs. cannot let myself lose it and start crying today. I have to get these things done. And I will. Getting in shower now. Shower will help. I can do this. It's one day. I can cry all night tonight if I need to but not right now.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Oh my. Tons to do for you. Hope ya get lots of sweethearts at Dmv!

[pirilin]

One step at the time. You can do it!.
Shower helps. An accomplishment in itself.
Good luck at the DMV. They will pass today.
Your son could be self-medicating.
Think of your reward at the end of the day.

[BlueInanna]

Thanks. Yea day is over phew! Daughter passed the written exam on drivers test finally. Very proud of her. We could not find my son but he called when I was already there. He was up the coast camping. He sounded good. Could be on speed again I am praying he's not. He missed his driver test but at least he remembered at last minute too late? Yes he has been self medicating for years. We talk about it. He does not want to admit he has the bipolar. I talk to him about what has helped me.
Later I met a gf at the beach for some medicinal. Beautiful out there with the fog bank coming in. Trying to enjoy now cuz it's going to start raining tomorrow for about 2 weeks straight I think.
Day by day. Miniute by minute.

Really sorry to hear about your son. That must be so hard.

Sounds like a lot to do but you did it! Sounds like a nice evening....good for you! Take care

[BlueInanna]

Friends from here help get me through. Thanks mama

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

I wouldn't call this a crash. Actually a fairly smooth landing compared to others I've had. I wish I could take this day to rest in bed. I don't feel well. Exhausted after the hypo, plus the extra seroquel to keep full on mania away feels taxing on my body, gives me tummy probs too.


Already planned this day away from office to take care of some DMV appointments. I can do it. I have to. Going to get my drivers license replaced, take daughter to driver test she failed last time, look for my son down in town he has the drivers license test today too. I haven't heard from him in several days. He's 20 with drug probs. cannot let myself lose it and start crying today. I have to get these things done. And I will. Getting in shower now. Shower will help. I can do this. It's one day. I can cry all night tonight if I need to but not right now.

That sucks that you have to do all that when you're feeling like this. I don't have grown kids but my step son (9 yrs old) recently started living with us full time and it's not easy when you have to keep it together and fake it for the sake of others. I even try to hide taking my meds around him. I don't want to look like I'm a pill popper in front of him. And with all my meds that's not easy. And he's smart! I admit there's a few times I've had to lock myself in the bathroom and cry it out. I just can't hold it in sometimes. After you get all this done, maybe before bed, just tuck yourself in and cry it out if that's what you need. Scream into your pillow if you have to! It's healthy to get it out. When I bottle it up, that bottle eventually explodes!

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