Gained 15lbs in the last month. Feel physically disgusting. Pain increases and body feel disgusting and bloated. Require med change. Mood is good. Hoping my PDOC will work with me on med changes and weight gain

[A Hobbit]

Yesterday I had posted that I was feeling like I might be coming out of a long, deep depression. I posted too soon, as the afternoon and into the wee small hours of this morning were quite bad.

Yet this morning I spent a couple hours cleaning our bedroom really well. 1st proactive thing I've done in weeks, it seems. My wife will be proud!

[hopeless2015]

Went to pdoc appt and cried I'm maxed out on mood stabilizer and the latuda, she ended up calling in a low dose of Paxil will see how this works out. She also said giving in to my fears and the depression just makes it harder to get over...stick to my routines. I know she is right but now on have to get myself back on track and my frame of mind is pretty fragile

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[scatterbrained04]

The ringing in my ear is driving me completely crazy. I've been super irritable.

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[Coconutzo]

Well,welp!
Curiously tingly plus tinnitus.
Floating fabulously, chest pain. Anxiety?
I'm positively plus sized in terms of the space I'm absorbing. I'm a sponge.
The loud sounds are louder and the quiet ones can read my thoughts.
Oh gosh.
I'm in a really good mood!

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[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling really tired today, comes with recovering from hypomania. But i'm doing ok. Synced up and cycling with the guy i met a few weeks ago, and it's awesome because we are still super into each other now that we are stable. I'm going to go for a consultation tonight with an artist to draw a tattoo for me. I want a snail, which symbolizes many things for me, partly the spirals and patterns in life, and how the same things repeat in different ways. Go slow

[Tsukiko]

I'm doing well today, albeit a little sad at the moment. My friends are having a party and I wasn't invited. I have to remind myself that I'm not a terribly fun person so I don't really blame them for not including me.

Originally Posted by Tsukiko-chan

I'm doing well today, albeit a little sad at the moment. My friends are having a party and I wasn't invited. I have to remind myself that I'm not a terribly fun person so I don't really blame them for not including me.

Aw, that's no fun. Do you think it's possible they forgot? Sometimes my friend invites people over to hang out with her, but she doesn't invite me. Then when I text her about something random, she's like, "Ohhh, did I tell you? I'm having a party. You should come!"

I'm in pretty good mood. Feeling energetic.

I skipped taking my Latuda tonight, just to see how it's affected me. So far, no drowsiness. I've never been up as late as 11pm in about 8 months. Normally I just fall asleep within 1 hour of taking it, so I normally take it around 8 and fall asleep at 9, then wake up at like 6 am.

[Tsukiko]

@bluebicycle: Perhaps. I wouldn't have known anything about it if they hadn't posted it all over Facebook. Then when I commented on something about the party, one replied, "It was planned last minute."

I'm not super disappointed about the situation. Although being left out by people who label me as a friend is somewhat painful (it takes me back to high school, a time before I had accepted who and what I am and rejection was excruciating), spending time with them isn't particularly fun for me. Their interests are far different than mine. The only glue that holds us together is the fact that we attend university together. They're the "let's get a bunch of people together and drink and party with loud music!" crowd while I'm the "let me get my closet friends in one room and watch horror films and play cards for humanity!" type.

Originally Posted by Tsukiko-chan

@bluebicycle: Perhaps. I wouldn't have known anything about it if they hadn't posted it all over Facebook. Then when I commented on something about the party, one replied, "It was planned last minute."

I'm not super disappointed about the situation. Although being left out by people who label me as a friend is somewhat painful (it takes me back to high school, a time before I had accepted who and what I am and rejection was excruciating), spending time with them isn't particularly fun for me. Their interests are far different than mine. The only glue that holds us together is the fact that we attend university together. They're the "let's get a bunch of people together and drink and party with loud music!" crowd while I'm the "let me get my closet friends in one room and watch horror films and play cards for humanity!" type.

I feel ya. I'm not much of a party goer myself, especially since I don't drink anymore. Unless I'm hypo/manic, I prefer to be by myself, as I guess I'm sort of introverted.

I like to watch movies on Netflix too, although I don't watch horror movies because they're too scary for me.

[lilypup]

Yeah, my drinking days r over too.

I'm sort of down today...I felt good this morning and it just slid a bit. I think I am feeling better and am sort of bored. But not good enough to commit to anything long term.

[Pikku Myy]

I don't feel like me tonight.

[gina_re]

I want to reply to more posts but I am so exhausted. I would love to catch up with everything that has been going on soon!

[hopeless2015]

Made it in to work today but feeling completely lost

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I lost all my games at Scrabble club last night, sad face. When i ordered a cab today and i was waiting on the line, they played "Taxi" by Harry Chapin! Someone's got a sense of humor!

[Icare dixit]

Day 3 at 150 mg 5-HTP I became very talkative and confident (both "too much"), but I did get sleepy at a decent hour. It seems to work as a good (serotonin) shock therapy during depression. But it could've been a coincidence.

I did become a bit too dehydrated, probably. But I compensated.

Mood still elevated, probably too high but my doctor and I are working on it. I feel a bit giddy and odd. Sitting on my hands and not making 1000 posts. Feel like asking lots of questions but also feeling like I know the answers so why ask? Others peoples opinions are valuable but so is there time.

[hopeless2015]

Doing better today one day at a time right now for me

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[BastetsMuse]

Things are going well this week. I showered twice in three days, and spent yesterday with hubby on a road trip through parts of California (Lake Tahoe, Emerald Bay). Got the grocery shopping done this morning without any major hang ups.

[scatterbrained04]

Doing ok. Better now that I quit taking Sudafed and Medrol. Anxiety is down. Still super freaked about my hearing though. The ringing in my ear is soooo loud. It's driving me crazy. It's been nearly two weeks of constant, loud ringing. Nothing will tune it out. I can't hear over it. Have an appointment with ENT next week. Hope they can give me some good news.

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[Tsukiko]

I'm in an agitated state. Everything is getting to me today.....

[Icare dixit]

Still doing well on hydroxylated tryptophan.

I started vaping. I tested all "non-combustible", electronic, ticking pen-like devices until I felt dizzy from all the nicotine.

I do like it. But I do like good ol', combustible cigarettes still. I miss the smell of the smoke, while smoking, but I like how there's no smell afterwards. No smelly hair or clothes!

[gina_re]

What a week! I was working extra hours on Mond, Tues, Thurs, and Fri to make up for taking Wednesday off to go to the hospital with my sister. And yay! I now have little Max to spoil! I actually got a lot of work done this week after a training session cleared up everything for me. But I'm so exhausted and I still have so much to do. My house is a mess. I think it smells too lol.I'm not looking forward to washing dishes. I have no food in the house and have to go grocery shopping tomorrow or else I will starve or binge on fast food. I have to go back to my sister's and giver her the items for Max that I bought.
And on top of all this, I've recently discovered that all of the headaches I've been having daily, may be linked to my wisdom teeth needing to be removed sooner rather than later. When I went to the dentist in April he told me that I have to get them out, which I know but keep avoiding since they don't hurt. Plus, this was getting closer to my sisters due date and I didn't want to miss anything. Now they hurt like hell and I have to get them removed ASAP. Luckily I was able to get a consultation scheduled for Monday, but I'm so scared to have the surgery. I will have to be put under for this because I'll be a nervous wreck. But because I'm on so many psych meds, I'm worried that I won't be able to.

I got my dog groomed for the first time in ages. I took her to a new place recommended to me by my neighbors and it didn't go that well so i won't go back. But at least it's done. We have to go in a cab as i don't have a car so it's really an ordeal and $$$.