[Melmo]

So I hate talking to people about my mental illnesses. I was glad to be off meds and actually feel normal for awhile. So this past Tuesday when I broke down and cried all day and all these symptoms of depression that I used to have and recognized that I was spiralling out of control again, I k ew I had to make an apt with my dr to talk about getting back on my meds. Well I kept putting it off and now that I've had two pretty good days, I'm telling myself I'm fine and don't need to make an apt or bring it up. I know logically this is wrong but I don't want to talk about my problems.
Anyone else feel like this?

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[Victoria'smom]

All the time, that's why I hate therapy. It makes me face the fact I don't function well.

[Melmo]

It just makes me feel like a ****** mom and I have enough guilt already

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[Ocean Swimmer]

An appointment with your Pdoc or T would be good right now. It will still be your final decision if you want to take Meds. Maybe talk therapy will be enough.

[Melmo]

I don't have one, just a family dr

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[Ocean Swimmer]

Depending on your ins, they'll usually pay if you get a referral from your MD.

[Melmo]

I don't have insurance. I'm in Canada and getting on the waiting list can take a year or two

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Yeah, it's awkward for me to talk to other people about my problems, regardless if they're a doctor. I feel the same way.

It took me 6 months to tell my regular doctor that I was even diagnosed as BP. I felt super awkward during our entire conversation, which lasted about 20 minutes.

I think it's worth seeing your doctor again, though... just to talk about what you're struggling with. It's good to be honest and say why you keep changing your mind. Even if you ultimately choose to not go on meds, I still think it's a good idea to talk with your doctor. This way, you'll know you've made a logical, informed decision regardless of what you decide to do.

[Roaming_bird]

I saw a therapist for months before I agreed to begin meds again. I think it's important to put it out there with your doctor so that he or she knows it's a struggle right now so that if you want to revisit the issue in the past, you don't have to bring it all up again from scratch.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Ahh I fell back to reality and decided to check in and see what a mess I've made on here... On fb... Over texts. So since I'm here I'll put in my 2 cents. Will your regular doc give you anything? At least a low dose benzo for the anxiety? I would give it a shot. I once went to urgent care because I was so desperate for a AD, I told him one that I know I can take. And in my state at least, urgent care docs usually won't write meds like that. But he did! I was so relieved because I couldn't get into my pdoc for awhile and I didn't get out of bed for months at that time. Who knows maybe he felt bad for me lol. Anyways, it's worth a shot!

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[Melmo]

I'm unsure if I want to take meds :/ last week I was convinced I did but now I feel like I might be able to go without. I just can't make up my mind. Same with birth control. I talked to my dr about not knowing what kind to go on (thankfully I'm single atm) and he suggested a iud and gave me prescriptions and a referral to a clinic to get it and I haven't actually done anything yet because I changed my mind and id rather get the pill but haven't made an appt to get a prescription for that either. I've convinced myself I won't need bc because I'm staying single but I have a history of getting in unplanned situations where bc would be needed. So...I don't know what to do

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[alincdytyourmeds]

My two cents, I hate talking to dr.s but I find it a necessary evil, and if you are afraid of a hiccup see about prn meds. Most definantly get some form of birth control, because you admit to putting yourself in some of those situations. And talking about bc is way easier than talking about the bipolar. Also birth control pills help with hormone issues which i am convinced agrivate the bipolar.