[CycloMary]

I have been restless today.....wanting to run away again. Just up & walk out of my life.
I feel so stuck sometimes.
Then, I wanted to drink tonight. I've been sober 4 yrs.
I was thinking of ways to smuggle booze in the house but I'm on Lithium so that didn't happen.

I'm so jacked up, I want to laugh & cry at the same time.

I feel like everything is in slow motion. I'm watching life unfold in front of me. What is that?

I don't care much about anything, just going through the motions. Day after day. I'm bored. People bore me.
I want my hypomanic excitement back. I feel it brewing just under the surface, scratching to get out.

I want energy & passion back.

Cyclo Mary, what is wrong with reality? Truth is easier to live with than adrenaline all the time. Growth comes slow, with rain, sun, dark, light, small wonderments of growth. And so it is in this life. We don't need to booze or drug to exist, because that is not reality. Reality is beautiful on its own to exist and see this beautiful world that was created for us to enjoy. I am a big fan if one is all jacked up, to put on a pair of hiking boots and go for a nice nature walk and feel the energy of the earth, embrace it, feel it and become alive that way. It does wonders, tc and blessings

[Wanderlust90]

I can relate. I've decided to call mine a quarter life crisis.

[Ocean Swimmer]

1200 mg lithium. A girl in my support group is on 900 mg and shakes like she has Parkinson's disease.