Going out to eat alone

I do most of my activities outside the house alone. I've become fiercely independent (not financially, of course) over the years, as a result. There is a grace and confidence in knowing you can occupy your time alone and not be socially dependent on others.

However, as someone who has never had many friends nor a girlfriend, I am often depressed as I witness so many others with friends and significant others. I desperately want that in life but it is so difficult to attain. What many take for granted I struggle to achieve. Regardless, I just try to focus on my own enjoyment performing activities by myself. It may be depressing at times but my social independence has become a strength that I'm aware many do not possess. I honestly don't know if that is a good or bad attribute but it is my life. As much as I desire companionship in different forms, I can't just never go out. So I guess you could say there is a little pragmatism involved.

*Oh, this is my first post, by the way.

My life, my curse: Bipolar Disorder, Type II

True.

Even people who lie and deceive, are helpful if you don't give them a reason to lie.

Reminds me of the movie Crash, when a black man (ludacris) was just planning on walking by a white woman (sandra bullock). The plans changed when she awkwardly clung to her husbands arm, showing not only fear, but disrespect, to the black man. Then she got mugged.

I am a huge believer in self fulfilling prophecies. They are literally swarming our world, for better and for worse. It is a cycle that can become both incredibly fortunate or vicious