Good news. Narrowminded bf finally googled lol!

(sorry if there's typos. Installed new keyboard that's getting used to my typing lol) If some of you haven't followed, I deal with a bf that openly admits to not believing in MI. Yes we fight, yes ive thought of leaving, yes others have told me to leave. But I'm not one to give up, just like he hasn't given up on me despite the ignorance.

Well I'm happy to report that he googled for once and actually initiated a convo with me, while shoving dry cereal in his mouth. First off, it takes me forever to wake up. I'll stay in bed till it catches on fire (yay night time AP!). Well he comes in the room yesterday morning, box of cereal in one arm, and says "this all day in bed crap *crunch crunch*, has to go. You need a healthy sleep routine". I laughed. Then he says "this vyvanse they got you on, its called hypomania." I clapped. And ended with "I found support groups for people like me that deal with people like you". I laughed. And at the end of the day I had a crying fit. Dysphoric and irritated at the world. He comes and holds me and says "I'm sensing an episode coming, what can I do?" wow. I have to admit ive been waiting for this day for a long time now. Does this mean everything's ok and always will be? Probably not. But he gets an "a" for effort. I should actually take the time to tell him I'm proud of him and that meant a lot to me. Its these little things that need to be said. We're both learning to deal with my BP every day.

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Your writing is so funny! :-D

In all seriousness, I'm so glad your boyfriend is educating himself about your illness. Sounds like a big breakthrough to me! Hurray!

Lol I try. And yes its a big step for us. Most of are arguments revolve around my MI and his misunderstanding. I hope this is the sign of a new start!

Is he having an affair? Does he want something from you?

Great to hear he seems to take it seriously. But I do wonder what made him change his perspective: in my experience, not believing in mental illness (I don't even) is deep-rooted, having much to do with a firm, "therapeutic"/"anxiolytic-rational" believe in control (for me the reason is different: I firmly believe in never having any control).

Edit:
It could just be his "self-transcending" intelligence or wisdom, though. He probably shares that trait with you.

Congrats!!!.

Great news.

No affair... That I know of?? Lol. But what got the ball rolling was our biggest blowup yet about a wk ago. We both said some nasty stuff and I let him know how alone I feel and unsupported here. I fell off the wagon this night too. It got to the point where bags were packed! Im hoping that he got the point where THIS is who I am and no matter what his demands, I'm not changing. I'm hoping while he googled he realized that I can't change. He also said that he will use a firm hand with my illness and won't let me use it as an excuse to lay in bed all day, ignore the family ect. Which I admit, I do often. If he wants to HELP me improve I'm all for it. But I hope he realized his threats of leaving aren't going to help. I'm also very stubborn (I'm a Taurus lol) and the more people poke me, he harder i dig my heals in. I can be a handful.

My husband has had minor breakthroughs, but in the long term he falls back on cliches.

I'm not trying hard enough.
I'm fat because I don't exercise enough.
Or I'm just lazy. Sickness doesn't do that to a person.

Most of the time I'm better off without his negativity. It doesn't help motivate me. Just makes me feel worse.

Yea I don't expect this to keep up. Tomorrow something will be my fault again!