[Icare dixit]

Do you (ever) feel in control when you are stable, or are you always more or less anxious or wary, overly cautious, about possible instability?

Does that anxiety or caution ever make it "impossible" for you to do the things you have/want to do? If so, is any irritability related to it, as far as you know?

Only when being on meds and supplements do I feel in control and relatively free, but supplements are really necessary to give me that true feeling of freedom and control (it could be a placebo effect, but it is not very likely).

I am still unsure about what dose of antipsychotic is best: too much can give me such a cautious demeanour, but not enough can make me too delusional.

What has helped you to deal with any such issues, if you have them?

[gayleggg]

I feel fairly stable right now. I know without my meds I don't feel stable and am not stable.

The dosage with an anti-psychotic take trial and error. I know it was hard for me recently when I changed meds which left me highly anxious and fidgety, but now I'm back to normal with a switch back to the one I was on before. I won't complain about the side effects of this one again.

Well, I'm "stable" for now (I think?), but 2 weeks ago I had dysphoric mania. I also had 3 episodes of depression over the course of 6 months, each of them lasting 3 weeks. I'm cycling somewhat rapidly, and I think Latuda has been helpful in preventing hypo/mania (with the exception of the dysphoric mania I experienced). However, Latuda isn't doing anything for my depression, which is ironic because Latuda is intended to help with depression, not hypo/mania.

I worry that I'm going to experience another episode soon. At this rate, I experience an episode every 6 weeks.

I'm hoping Lamictal will work for the depression piece, but I'm still titrating up.

[pirilin]

Originally Posted by Icare dixit

Do you (ever) feel in control when you are stable, or are you always more or less anxious or wary, overly cautious, about possible instability?

Does that anxiety or caution ever make it "impossible" for you to do the things you have/want to do? If so, is any irritability related to it, as far as you know?

Only when being on meds and supplements do I feel in control and relatively free, but supplements are really necessary to give me that true feeling of freedom and control (it could be a placebo effect, but it is not very likely).

I am still unsure about what dose of antipsychotic is best: too much can give me such a cautious demeanour, but not enough can make me too delusional.

What has helped you to deal with any such issues, if you have them?

That is the big disadvantage of knowing that you are sick. Always questioning.
Nobody is in control of anything. It's always the enemy controlling everything.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm hoping Lamictal will work for the depression piece, but I'm still titrating up.

you should have my pdoc , he had me go from 200 to 400 in about 3 weeks .... but lamictal did help my depression ... strange as it seems I really needed it that fast .....

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by pirilin

That is the big disadvantage of knowing that you are sick. Always questioning.
Nobody is in control of anything. It's always the enemy controlling everything.

Feeling (that is, as if I am) in control.

I never believe in control. Helps with other delusions/truths.