[Mysterious_Lion]

For the past few weeks after a really good event I felt my moods go up like I could clean & do things like I used to enjoy that I lost interest in.

Instead of doing my daily walks around neighborhood I been told by Pdoc & GP to jog or run more so I been doing that 3 times a week I used to walk everyday. since I am on sodium valproate can cause weight gain I asked how can I maintain it that was there suggestion.

I feel like running or jogging is a chore like I do 5 or 6 kilometers I rather get it over with than enjoy I guess it's something I have to deal with.. I don't enjoy most sports so I guess my only option.

My Pdoc has given me homework like read a book she suggested to read, write my life story :/ suggest me to write my negative thoughts so I can fix them to positive ones, I am okay writing the negative thoughts but after 3 sessions I don't feel comfortable about writing my life story anymore not that what I am wrting makes me depressed I just find it pointless & boring, I haven't even bothered with the books I know what I am like I sit there become restless half the time when I read 5 pages in I forget what it's on about read the the first page I wasn't interested was cheesy.

I been told I have social anxiety (why I been recommended a particular book)I agree with it but most the time I dislike conversations I like being around people I relate to with interests most the time talking I have no flow in conversations I have nothing else to add once a point had been made.

Yesterday was an event I got well dressed for it everyone seem like didn't want to be there felt like a waste of time I didn't drink everyone was drinking I didn't drink cause it can cause bad interaction with my meds thought be smart not to drink. I felt yesterday my mood plummeted I had good feeling of moods for the past two weeks for no reason could of been a **** day for everyone I felt great for no reason first time in a long while felt really great in these weeks.

Today I felt mixed restless depressed angry than no motivation I want to throw things, I want to have people around me to talk but don't at the same time, I feel like no matter what I do I guess I am stuck with this mood. I don't get still how I go from 80 to 0 in a day??? I feel like I am okay if I never wake up but I won't be doing anything serious. Just I feel crap I should do the homework left by Pdoc no matter if you left me homework I don't have that motivation for it if I find it boring...

This doesn't make sense I guess but feel everywhere I can't think straight

[4infinity]

Originally Posted by Mysterious_Lion

For the past few weeks after a really good event I felt my moods go up like I could clean & do things like I used to enjoy that I lost interest in.

Instead of doing my daily walks around neighborhood I been told by Pdoc & GP to jog or run more so I been doing that 3 times a week I used to walk everyday. since I am on sodium valproate can cause weight gain I asked how can I maintain it that was there suggestion.

I feel like running or jogging is a chore like I do 5 or 6 kilometers I rathe in I'mr get it over with than enjoy I guess it's something I have to deal with.. I don't enjoy most sports so I guess my only option.

My Pdoc has given me homework like read a book she suggested to read, write my life story :/ suggest me to write my negative thoughts so I can fix them to positive ones, I am okay writing the negative thoughts but after 3 sessions I don't feel comfortable about writing my life story anymore not that what I am wrting makes me depressed I just find it pointless & boring, I haven't even bothered with the books I know what I am like I sit there become restless half the time when I read 5 pages in I forget what it's on about read the the first page I wasn't interested was cheesy.

I been told I have social anxiety (why I been recommended a particular book)I agree with it but most the time I dislike conversations I like being around people I relate to with interests most the time talking I have no flow in conversations I have nothing else to add once a point had been made.

Yesterday was an event I got well dressed for it everyone seem like didn't want to be there felt like a waste of time I didn't drink everyone was drinking I didn't drink cause it can cause bad interaction with my meds thought be smart not to drink. I felt yesterday my mood plummeted I had good feeling of moods for the past two weeks for no reason could of been a **** day for everyone I felt great for no reason first time in a long while felt really great in these weeks.

Today I felt mixed restless depressed angry than no motivation I want to throw things, I want to have people around me to talk but don't at the same time, I feel like no matter what I do I guess I am stuck with this mood. I don't get still how I go from 80 to 0 in a day??? I feel like I am okay if I never wake up but I won't be doing anything serious. Just I feel crap I should do the homework left by Pdoc no matter if you left me homework I don't have that motivation for it if I find it boring...

This doesn't make sense I guess but feel everywhere I can't think straight

Hi


Hi out of all symptoms other than being extremely manic or depressed, the restlessness is the worst! In feel it throughout my whole body and feel like I will go crazy. I finally take a norco just to cool things down. Lol on reading 5 pages of something and wondering what the hell was the meaning of what I just read! I'm not laughing at you only the irony of it all. I wish you peace. I know how fleeting it is, but I wish it for you if only for a short while. Take good care of you and God Bless you.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Mysterious_Lion: The Skeezyks never feels any inclination to do any of those sorts of "exercises", such as writing your life story, people seem to come up with. As you commented, they just always seem pointless & boring. From the Skeezyks' perspective, there's enough about life that is pointless & boring without intentionally adding to it! The Skeezyks also does not run or jog. He walks... walks his dog, does walking meditation, & just plain walks. From his perspective... it is enough...