Positive things I've done today #4 :)

eaten breakfast

that is all

can't be ****ed to be ppositive

Picking up boyfriend from prison. He gets out today after 13 months!

Told my nurse I was high as a kite with euphoria (as opposed to dark mania of last week) instead of hiding it so I can get higher. I am supposed to notify staff when my mood changes. So far they are letting me be and enjoy it.

I got out of bed and went to church this evening and I went for a walk with a friend this afternoon. I cried between the walk and going to church but I got up.

Went for a walk this morning.

Went to a park and took more pictures.

Picked up the rest of my meds (for now--I still have to put in the sleeping med).

Laundry, waxed my eyebrows, ate dinner out and brought food home for sons. Good day.

trying to take the focus off myself by responding to other posts on the forums. I have been self absorbed lately. Sorry guys. Want to make friends too as I have few on or offline.

You got me for what it's worth. It's hard to focus on other people's issues when you're dying inside. Be patient with yourself. I do find it helpful to try and genuinely help others who are in pain though....helps me take the focus off myself for awhile....but when I'm too sick.....forget about it....I'm too caught up fighting my own headspace. We understand Wander. (((Hugs)))

Can't sleep because my anxiety is very high right now. Trying to finish my work before the deadline today. Got 50% of it done so far, which is much better than the 0% I had 5 hours ago.

Hopefully I can finish this all by 9am.

Took a walk this morning. Helped clean the kitchen and master bath.

eaten breakfast

listened to music

trivia challenge

put a clean shirt on

ooo didn't harm myself

Biking today.

It is only 9.30am but I hardly slept. Positive thing I have done is take Olanzapine as I was getting manic. Nurse didn't make me but strongly urged me. I wanted to fly higher but i guess the come down is worse then. The med has calmed my thoughts but i still feel wired and super-fun-happy-slide...Simpsons joke.

Put my clothes in the washer so I have stuff ready to wear to my group and Dr Intake appointment. Feeling nervous but glad I'm making some progress.

eaten breakfast

put away some laundry

sorted out food for later

put music on

didn't harm myself

Took a shower and started working (at 3 pm, but at least)

Contacted a friend to tell him I was not well and asked him to meet me tonight.

For good or for bad I'm calming down....reconnecting with my logical and rational mind and accepting that my emotional mind has its points too. I'm becoming more cohesive and complete....all aspects of myself are melding together to form a more complete version of myself. I'm whole....still in pain and still not what would be considered officially stable but I will refrain from calling people attempted murderers and will find and hold tight to my center and better version of myself. Thank you to the many people who have chatted with me, talked me down from the emotional ledge and allowed me to express myself.

suggested PC to someone I know with an anxiety disorder, and i've seen they've joined too

took a shower

laundry

uplifting music

ate breakfast/ sorted out food for later

not harmed myself

Got leave (I'm IP) to go out for five hours with my Mum. We shopped (bought the most cool flip-flops with pictures of waves and surfers on them), walked along the beach, went out for coffee and had a simple lunch. Also briefly saw my sister and nieces and nephews. It was wonderful to get out of hospital for a while. My mood is great so I was able to enjoy it too.

glad you enjoyed it

how's the IP going

Thanks. The IP is going really well. I have been in a week. Wanted to be discharged today but psychiatrist believes I am manic/mixed so he won't discharge me until he thinks I am stable. Bit disappointed but so happy that I don't really care. Feeling euphoric and alive so can't complain.

I took a walk around the park this morning. It was cold.

Attempting to do guided meditation/imagery from youtube videos, and I'm going to try some more of it now. I used it in the past, and it helped before bed, so I'm crossing my fingers that this will be good for me.