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Old May 18, 2016, 10:23 AM
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I feel like my BP has evolved into something where I only experience depression and dysphoric mania.

During dysphoric mania, I get increased energy, little need for sleep, reckless behavior, racing thoughts, I'm highly productive... and yet I've lost interest in things, I have a "nothing matters anymore" attitude, I have intense feelings of guilt, and I feel sad. I also have extreme irritability.

I haven't had a manic episode since October, and even *that* wasn't a natural manic episode. It was triggered by an antidepressant! Before that, I can't even remember when I was hypo or manic. It's always dysphoric mania. No fair I've been cheated! I deserve a manic or hypomanic episode

Has anyone else's BP "evolved" into something different?

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Old May 18, 2016, 11:35 AM
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Yes, it started as unipolar depression (arguably/likely schizodepressive), then BP-II and finally, ("Joy! Beautiful sparks of God!") BP-I or schizomania (diagnosed with schizomania).

I think antidepressants/anxiolytics don't mix well with a dysphoric mania propensity. I'd call it emotional-agoraphobic (cf. -claustrophobic) anxiety. No direction. Not really stuck but (still) overwhelmed.

Of course you may have that regardless, but I think/believe (in a way) numbing yourself, emotionally, can make it worse.

You may be basically, stuck in a moment: between mania and depression. You have to choose a direction. Probably no good staying there.
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Old May 18, 2016, 11:39 AM
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I too seem to only get depression and dysphoric manias. I feel cheated too. I don't even get the good side of mania, the only positive for my mania is I'm highly productive and creative, but its not a fun time for me or those around me.
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Old May 18, 2016, 11:40 AM
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The majority of my manic episodes have been hateful, angry dysphoric manias and most of my depressions have been agitated. But the last few manic episodes have been rather euphoric in nature and my last depression was more lethargic... don't know why, but everything seems to have shifted in the last few years. I have no idea if this will continue or if things will "go back to normal" at some point... I guess it's anybody's guess, really.
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