[raspberrytorte]

So I've officially crashed, which obviously was going to happen.

I'm just so tired! And my boss at work is being so mean to me, which is what I deserve for being foolish and going off on her so often. I already have to do the work of three people and she keeps on giving me all this extra work to do, so I have to do the work of four people, which is impossible right now

I'm such a whiny baby. And after bawling hysterically at the back of the building yesterday, I've decided that I need some time off to straighten myself out. I'm a mess. I cant take a break though. I can't even think straight.

Anyway, I need some cheer.

[hopeless2015]

Big HUGS try to be kind to yourself...I know easier said than done but I totally understand where your at, I've been there myself a LOT lately.

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[pirilin]

Can't opine about your job situation. But I'm with 'ya. All da way. Forever.
Post, PM, airplane banner, I'm with 'ya. Communicate any which way you want to, but let it out.
Bring every saint back to earth. Move all the trash in the 'hood. And rant.
You're very short of your ranting capabilities. I know it. You know it. RANT!!!.
It will do you good. Blessing.

[raspberrytorte]

Thanks, p, but my ranting phase is over with for now.

[raspberrytorte]

And I would like to emphasize I'm not feeling oh boo hoo, sorry for myself either. I just feel sad and deflated. Actually, I don't even know why I posted this. I'm just looking for some cheering up.

And I did my best this morning. I listened to happy music and hung out with my cat and drank a monster ultra sunrise (it's called an ultra sunrise! How can that not cheer you up?). But those things didn't really work.

[raspberrytorte]

And I had to walk to work today and seriously considered walking out into traffic, but if I died I'd traumatize whoever hit me, and if I didn't die I could end up paralyzed or something, which would just make things worse. Sigh.

I hate the inevitable crash. It sucks donkey nuts

You should watch some Courage the Cowardly Dog since it's your favorite cartoon

it's also the best cartoon ever... and that video is my favorite episode ever

But IDK. You can dance with your cat in your underwear or something. Spice things up. Do something you wouldn't normally do.

Eat lots of whatever your favorite food is -- or kick your hornet's nest and throw it off the side of your apartment building to see what happens.

[pirilin]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

And I had to walk to work today and seriously considered walking out into traffic, but if I died I'd traumatize whoever hit me, and if I didn't die I could end up paralyzed or something, which would just make things worse. Sigh.

After watching the cartoon, go to the zoo. Bribe a keeper and get a hold of 60 ml of monkey blood.
Capuchin works better. Injected is faster, but painful. Slowly pour it in a beef stew. If you see some suds, slow down.
Morning noon and night for three days. Your energy will come back with a vengeance. This thing works better than B12.

I'm sorry, it's the only stupid suggestion that comes to mind. Besides the B12. I'm serious about that. Mick Jagger gets a B12 shot before every concert. Luv.p

[Rjaye]

I have all sorts of ideas for you, but I don't think that's what you need right now.

Walking is good so long as you're safe. Nature always helps me.

Films are good. Are there any you really like that you could watch again?

My go-to is "Harold and Maude" because I get to cry but the movie ends so hopefully I feel better.

And watch the monkey blood. B-12 or Vitamin D helps, too.

Hugs.

[raspberrytorte]

blue,

That hornet was back this morning!

I thought it had drowned.

[MedicatedMe]

You don't deserve that kind of treatment, and where are these other people? Why aren't they doing their work? That would be stressful for anyone with or without mental health problems. I'd be complaining too!

Good on you for taking some time off. It sounds like you're in much need of it.

Feel better! Sending hugs your way!

[Unrigged64072835]

Lots of hugs. No solutions, I'm afraid.

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

blue,

That hornet was back this morning!

I thought it had drowned.

That's one resilient hornet

Maybe you can make it your pet. Teach it new tricks... Have it stab your enemies... including your boss, Mrs McMeaniePants.

I see a lot of potential... Or as they say: the Force is strong with this one

[cincidak]

Hugs. Hope you can get some rest from all the mess. By some Catnip bubbles for your cat and watch her pop them.

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[raspberrytorte]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

That's one resilient hornet

Maybe you can make it your pet. Teach it new tricks... Have it stab your enemies... including your boss, Mrs McMeaniePants.

I see a lot of potential... Or as they say: the Force is strong with this one

Lol.

You're funny.

Only problem is that I'm scared of that hornet. It's big. It's loud. I bolt inside whenever I see it flying my way.

[raspberrytorte]

Thanks for the replies everyone and ideas.

I have come up with a plan. I'm going to get in touch with nature (by going to the park down the street and sitting under a tree). I'm getting an economy sized bottle of vitamin B complex. I'm going to go out for icecream. I'm sitting outside in the sun. I'm eating salads.

And I'm doing that monkey blood whatever idea it was that p had. lol

[Rjaye]

Good for you!

[raspberrytorte]

Thank you!

[MusicLover82]

I do extra caffeine on my depressed days and that takes the edge off the depression. I hope you find your stability soon!!

[~Christina]

Time for a good float stop fighting to swim upstream, float build up yourr strenght and then tackle life again. .. I say add a cupcake to the mix and some Binge TV .

Hope your feeling better soon.

Ps ... No playing frogger in the road

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

So I've officially crashed, which obviously was going to happen.

I'm just so tired! And my boss at work is being so mean to me, which is what I deserve for being foolish and going off on her so often. I already have to do the work of three people and she keeps on giving me all this extra work to do, so I have to do the work of four people, which is impossible right now

I'm such a whiny baby. And after bawling hysterically at the back of the building yesterday, I've decided that I need some time off to straighten myself out. I'm a mess. I cant take a break though. I can't even think straight.

Anyway, I need some cheer.

*Hugs to you* I hope that after your work hours, you are able to do certain things to unwind that make the day slightly calmer, whether it's guided meditation (I like to go to youtube for that) or reading inspirational material helps. You are not a whiny baby. I think anyone would have a very difficult time in your situation. She sounds like a very hard woman to deal with, and you don't deserve that. However, it's so hard coming to terms that there's nothing you can do to change people, but only your reaction to them.

That being said, my heart goes out to you! It's hard dealing with a boss like that, and I'd be crying in the back of a building too. Giving yourself a break (during your off hours) is of utmost importance right now, especially when you are also dealing with Bipolar. Also, trying to stay "in the moment" when you are off from work can help you decompress. Also, maybe looking for a new job would give you the ability to live a life that is less stressful. Just some things to think about. No matter what though, please try not to fault yourself! You are in a difficult situation.