[GoldenSnitch]

I don't know anyone else who will get it but I'm in rough shape. Since my diagnosis I've been a disaster. My marriage is over, I only get to see my daughter half the time, my mom isn't talking to me, I have no friends and I'm just so sad.

It's all my own fault. I didn't feel in love with my husband anymore and I ended up cheating. So we split up and now we share custody of my daughter and it kills me. She's the light and love of my life. Whenever she's not at home with me all I do is cry. My mom doesn't understand mental illness and is mad at me because I didn't confide in her and now she isn't talking to me.

I've never been social so I don't really have any friends. I feel so alone when my daughter is with her dad. I don't know how to get through this.

Thanks to anyone who read this.

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(((((((((GoldenSnitch)))))))) I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy.
Wish I had some magic words for you...

[Hairball]

is the gentleman u cheated with supportive at all?

[Wander]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much. Big HUGS!!!!!

[cincidak]

HUGS!!!!!!! I've told others about this, maybe it will help. There's a website called meetup.com. It's set up so that a group of strangers gets together to share an activity of common interest. Bowling, bicycling, board games, trivia night at the pub, sewing, cooking, wine tasting, pub hopping, etc. There are even mental health support groups. It's different in every city obviously. Everyone is on common footing since most won't know each other so maybe it won't be so daunting meeting new people. It's just a thought. You'll get through this. Just remember it's temporary and make the time with your daughter really count. I so sorry you are having a difficult time.

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[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by Hairball

is the gentleman u cheated with supportive at all?

Well in the beginning he was. We were friends. But lately he's been very mean to me and calling me very negative things and it's not been good so I can't even rely on him.

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[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by cincidak

HUGS!!!!!!! I've told others about this, maybe it will help. There's a website called meetup.com. It's set up so that a group of strangers gets together to share an activity of common interest. Bowling, bicycling, board games, trivia night at the pub, sewing, cooking, wine tasting, pub hopping, etc. There are even mental health support groups. It's different in every city obviously. Everyone is on common footing since most won't know each other so maybe it won't be so daunting meeting new people. It's just a thought. You'll get through this. Just remember it's temporary and make the time with your daughter really count. I so sorry you are having a difficult time.

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I will have to take a look. Thank you for the suggestion and your kind words.

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[JustJace2u]

Sorry to hear about your situation. Hopefully in time you and your ex will be able to at least communicate with each other. Sending lots of hugs.

Big hugs....we are here to support you. You are not alone. Hang in there.

[Outoftouch]

I understand the no friend thing , since my best friends suicide I've shut out any idea of friendship. As for partial custody I couldn't even imagine . I spent 5 days away from my son one time and lost my cool.
Although I don't believe in cheating I think it was your way of finding out for sure your marriage was over. ::
Things will settle .

Sending you a million hugs. My heart breaks for you. no advise, just lots of hugs. Hang in there, if you work on it, things will get a lot better.

[hopeless2015]

Big HUGS!!

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[MusicLover82]

((HUGS)) Sounds like you need a fresh start. You can do it. Look for ways to start anew, but of course grieving the loss of people in your life and other aspects of your life is normal and necessary. Do you have a good therapist? Maybe find a support group to go to?

[Crazy Hitch]

I hope you feel better soon

[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by MusicLover82

((HUGS)) Sounds like you need a fresh start. You can do it. Look for ways to start anew, but of course grieving the loss of people in your life and other aspects of your life is normal and necessary. Do you have a good therapist? Maybe find a support group to go to?

My therapist is wonderful so I'm glad to have her. I'll have to look into support groups but that might be a good idea.

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[GoldenSnitch]

Thank you everyone for all of your support and kind words.

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[cashart10]

What a horrible circumstance! I hope peace finds you soon and that your relationships normalize. You deserve love! Please continue to post here as you will receive much support.

[bizi]

Just wanted to add hugs (((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[OctobersBlackRose]

Hugs

Checking in, was wondering how you are doing....

[GoldenSnitch]

Thanks for all of the support and for checking in

It's been a rough period for me but I saw T a couple of days ago so that always helps me. I'm just so tired from the ups and downs but if I keep working at it it has to get better right?

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[hopeless2015]

HUGS

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[newtothis31]

I can relate. When I was diagnosed with BiPolar, my husband wasn't willing to accept the diagnosis and had been cheating on me. We ended up getting a divorce, and the process was very difficult.

The first year and half post diagnosis is really challenging. On top of learning to deal with having bipolar- you are also have to learn how to co-parent and transition into the next phase of your life. So cut yourself some slack.

It is going to be hard for it to feel normal without your daughter around on the nights she is with her dad. Let it be a time where you can recharge your batteries. The other poster suggestions about support groups, looking at meet-ups are a great idea. I recently joined a meet-up group for divorced women and it's been great.

You can also spend that time doing something for you- going on a beautiful nature trail, going swimming- try not to be in the house alone for a while. If there are opportunities to volunteer at your daughter's school or in the community, you may want to take advantage of that. I also met a few good friends post-divorce by going on the NextDoor App and meeting people who lived close to me.

Things are going to get better if you take the time to let yourself grieve and start to envision the type of future you want to have. A lot of small steps forward eventually add up to a mile.

Hugs! Keep us posted on how you're doing.

[pirilin]

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