[Victoria'smom]

Is having a T only every two weeks enough for me? How would I know? I've been stable for "weeks" according to former t besides the day of crying spells and blips of paranoia. New T was concerned enough I'm on her cancellation list and did a safety plan. I can return to former T and get weekly but I don't feel I'm getting anywhere with her and she's afraid of me while saying I'm stable. How do I make every two weeks therapy work for me? I started a mood chart again. How am I going to make it 5 weeks? my head will explode first. I have hope for new T but she's tied to IP. I'm scared I'll end up IP as they (my new team) gets use to me. At least they don't seem as stricked except for the whole police get called if I'm homicidal. My ED is acting up and I want to SH. This whole moving clinics is really getting to me. I must make it through. My son comes home tomorrow and this place is trashed. I don't know why this is bothering me so much. I can't concentrate but besides the car accident things are going well for us. Why do I feel doomed? I'm stressed for no reason why? I'll get use to every two week appointments right?

[HALLIEBETH87]

What coping skills are you trying?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm trying to distract myself until it's 11. Then I'm going to bed.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Can you eventually move to weekly sessions, once you get started? I would be struggling with the whole change thing (I nearly wound up hospitalized when my therapist was just more than likely leaving in a few months. He didn't but when he retires I will be in very bad shape) too but I know that trying to guess too much about what it will be like only makes it harder for me. Can your current therapist communicate with the new one and note that you've seen her weekly and she feels this is beneficial?

[Victoria'smom]

Can you eventually move to weekly sessions, once you get started? I don't think so it's the way that center is set up. I use to write letters to T when things were bad between sessions.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

If you don't ask you won't know...The place I go has a sliding scale but I used to make too much to qualify. However I had to pay out of pocket and couldn't afford the full amount. I asked if they would make an exemption (and gave them my financial information) and they did for years. I hated asking but it was better than having to cut back on sessions or go elsewhere.

The worst they can say is no.....and they might say yes.

[Victoria'smom]

I'll ask after a few sessions.

[Yoda]

Have you ever considered intensive out pt?

[Victoria'smom]

They have IOP but that's groups, not one-on-one and I'm not good in groups. I'm quiet. I don't know how to get into there IOP or if it'll even work with my husband's schedule. I'd rather wait then go IOP.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Be specific. What are you doing to cope?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm surfing PC, refreshing the screen. Staying in the same room as my husband. listening to music and trying to breathe it's so hard to breathe. 1 more hour till bed.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Why not do something active too? Get some exercise in and get energy out

[Victoria'smom]

Trying to go to bed. Thanks for keeping me ocupied.

[Secretum]

You're a strong person, MM.

Do you find that journaling helps you?

[Victoria'smom]

Yes it at least gets all the thoughts out of my head.

What type of thoughts? How was your sleep? Thinking of you.

Is H still depressed?

[Victoria'smom]

The thought "I don't know if I can make it five weeks stable." I don't feel stable. I feel doomed for another episode. I'm sleeping 4-14 hrs depending on the night. I'm getting dizzy and light headed from not drinking/eating enough, complete with white spots and far away hearing when I go outside for to long, to long means ~ 20 min. I'm working on that though. plus I'm all confused and disjointed. which leaves me scared, I'm smart I shouldn't be confused and disjointed.

H is still depressed but he's leaving the room and even though he had great protest he took a shower.

[Victoria'smom]

I maybe getting depressed SI and SUI ideas are coming up a lot with this car insurance stuff. It looks like it's going through our (H's mom's) insurance instead of my parents (It was their vehicle). This is BS.

On the plus side I had: eggs (2), toast, chicken, tater tots, swiss cake rolls (2) and 32 oz of soda. That's double+ what I'd normally eat!

[JustJace2u]

My pdoc is forcing me to see my t every week now instead of about every 3-4 weeks, all because of my suicidal ideations I was having a few weeks ago.