[MBM17]

My first therapist ever told me I'd fallen in love with him. I hadn't. (I was totally unattracted to him.) I was 17 and he was a graduate student. He had already decided he was right and didn't listen to me. That's the last time I met with him.

That was 8 years ago, and it left me petrified of how I acted in therapy in case another therapist would misinterpret what I said or did to be too intense or too attached or something else. I never trusted a therapist with all of me again.

It was so traumatizing that it took me two years of meeting with an excellent therapist before I even mentioned it to him because I was so petrified he would misinterpret something and tell me to stop coming. It has similarities to PTSD and we're going to do EMDR about it.

I had a psychologist insult me when i was homeless. Thanx!

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Wow wtf?! You're T was totally out of line and I'd probably go so far as to report him.

But as far as my experiences go, my worst was with a pdoc when I was 24. I had gotten pregnant and told him. He said "people like you shouldn't have babies". I left the office in tears and never went back.

Worst part is... I had a miscarriage shortly after.

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[Christopher1990]

idk ive seen so many in my life. When I was a kid I refused to talk to them and remember filling out questions the whole time circling 1 for every answer

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[wildflowerchild25]

My worst therapy experience was actually at a program. I went to a dbt partial hospital program shortly after being dxed with BP (again). There was no process group where I could talk about what was going on with me and my individual therapy sessions were just going over the diary card, not helping me learn how to handle the dx. My moods were fluctuating wildly, vacillating between horrible paralyzingly depression and unbelievable euphoric mania. This program was convinced I was making everything up for attention. The worse I got, the more they said I could control it if I tried and I was just being willful and difficult. I wasn't applying dbt skills. I told them toward the end that I felt like two different people and that I felt I had been possssed by a demon. I was clearly psychotic, but they refused to change my meds or even let me see the doctor. It ended when I hurt myself bad enough to need 20 or so stitches and ended up IP.

I think dbt can be helpful, but if your moods are from bipolar, it can't stop them. I know dbt forwards and backwards now and it still doesn't bring me out of a depression. It helps me cope better with the depression but I'm still depressed.

I'll never do a straight dbt program again.

[Wild Coyote]

Many years ago, I had a therapist trying to convince me to be paranoid about my pdoc. She was jealous of the quick rapport I'd had with the pdoc. We had parted ways. My pdoc has also been my therapist since. Not the same pdoc, yet not a separate pdoc from therapist... ever again.


WC

[Tmom2010]

It wasn't with my therapist but with a psychiatrist. I told her when I was in school I couldn't eat in front of others out of fear they were watching me and judging me. She stopped writing and laughed. She then asked me the question that still haunts me years later, "What makes you so special to think people would want to look at you eat?". I still can't believe she said it!

[Wander]

My worst experience (apart from some crazy pastors) was two weeks after I had started a new anti-depressant and one week after being discharged from hospital. This was before I was diagnosed BP. At the time I was diagnosed PTSD, MDD and BPD.

My mood was very dark, I was incredibly agitated, not sleeping, racing thoughts, volatile and suicidal. I was planning to kill myself that day but decided to go to my psychiatrist appointment and be completely open to save myself. I felt I could no longer control myself and expected to be committed.

When I told my pdoc that I was planning to kill myself that day she said, "I can't help you with that" I begged her to get me off the AD but she insisted I increase the dose and told me to come back in two weeks. I told her I wouldn't be alive in two weeks. She just said goodbye and rushed me out of the office. Within two hours I had taken a very serious overdose and was lucky to survive.

My guess is that she bought into the stigma around BPD and assumed I was saying that to get attention and that I just loved being IP. Stupid pdoc.

I freak out a little each time my psychiatrist meantions work

[fairydustgirl]

I had a social worker therapist for my first one who I was seeing just prior to my breakdown and then afterwards as well...my pdoc put me on meds for my bp and some sleep med too...she kept telling me I shouldn't take the sleep meds but I should drink wine every night for sleep...after the second time she made the suggestion I told my pdoc and he was very forceful in saying I had to quit seeing her and find someone else. I found the therapist at his office who I have been seeing ever since, for 9 years now. I wish I had found her first, maybe it wouldn't have taken me 7 months to get through that depressive episode. None have lasted that long since then thank goodness.

[wildflowerchild25]

A therapist told you to drink to go to sleep? Wow.

[fairydustgirl]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

A therapist told you to drink to go to sleep? Wow.

I know, right? she was an elderly lady, she was even wearing depends LOL
I knew something was wrong with that advice, especially as I didn't drink in the first place. let's just trade one problem for another, shall we?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Damn I wish one of my docs gave me alcohol as a script lol!!

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[Yours_Truly]

Probably when the second therapist only that I'd ever seen terminated therapy because I wasn't trying hard enough.

[MBM17]

Oh my gosh! When providers say someone is just making it up, that's so dangerous! My therapists never believed what I was saying when I told them, "I'm suicidal. I hate my life. I feel totally hopeless." I was in really deep depression, but because I always look physically like I'm okay, they never believed me. I think my experience happened for a different reason, but the result is the same - it's dangerous for providers to think they know better than the patient what the patient is experiencing. Ridiculous.

[MBM17]

Wow. Tmom_2010, she obviously didn't think before she said that. That is one of those statements that haunts a person forever. That's horrible.