Ok so the last 2 nights this feeling has come back and now this time has carried through to the morning and there is so much to do like I have a thousand plans of things I need to do and projects to start and I am feeling very magical again and it is weird cause normally I hate myself but today I kind of feel like I am amazing and my head is going fast again.

[mindwrench]

I hope you are okay?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Please call your pdoc or go to the ER.

Time to either call your doctor or go to the ER. You are headed that direction if you don't reach out for medical help.

[Bigmike727]

I think calling your doc may be good. Hoping that all is well with you.

but i feel better than i have been feeling isnt that a good thing why is it bad to feel good?

[bizi]

tell your mother what has been going on, trust her to support you.
You need some one in real life to trust and be on your team/side.
bizi

Originally Posted by eden1515

but i feel better than i have been feeling isnt that a good thing why is it bad to feel good?

This is how you were feeling when you ended up hospitalized. You are becoming manic again. You need to call your doctor and/or go to the ER before it gets out of control again.

Originally Posted by bizi

tell your mother what has been going on, trust her to support you.
You need some one in real life to trust and be on your team/side.
bizi

she would literally have no clue what to do.

Originally Posted by lolagrace

This is how you were feeling when you ended up hospitalized. You are becoming manic again. You need to call your doctor and/or go to the ER before it gets out of control again.

ok yes this is how i was feeling but if i can keep it down a bit then couldnt it be a good thing i dont have a plan to hurt myself this time so how can it really be that bad.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by eden1515

ok yes this is how i was feeling but if i can keep it down a bit then couldnt it be a good thing i dont have a plan to hurt myself this time so how can it really be that bad.

Mania doesn't just stop at a certain point. It will just get worse each day until you eventually do want to hurt yourself. Nip this in the bud please and call your pdoc. Every thread you start is the same. And every response is the same. This won't simply just stop at a sweet spot.

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Mania doesn't just stop at a certain point. It will just get worse each day until you eventually do want to hurt yourself. Nip this in the bud please and call your pdoc. Every thread you start is the same. And every response is the same. This won't simply just stop at a sweet spot.

I DONT KNOW WHiCH ONE I AM MEANT TO CALL no one will tell me wich doctor is going to be my doctor and i literally have no clue which one i would be meant to contact and one of them i dont even have a number for.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by eden1515

I DONT KNOW WHiCH ONE I AM MEANT TO CALL no one will tell me wich doctor is going to be my doctor and i literally have no clue which one i would be meant to contact and one of them i dont even have a number for.

Then maybe you should go to the ER.

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Then maybe you should go to the ER.

but that is for emergencies also they wouldnt even see me i will just tell my case worker when i see her next

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by eden1515

but that is for emergencies also they wouldnt even see me i will just tell my case worker when i see her next

They can't deny care to anyone. I'm sure if you told them what you're telling us then they can help you. Some hospitals have a psych dr on call that could help. And if not, they can refer you to a pdoc to see like the next day. It can't hurt.

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

They can't deny care to anyone. I'm sure if you told them what you're telling us then they can help you. Some hospitals have a psych dr on call that could help. And if not, they can refer you to a pdoc to see like the next day. It can't hurt.

i cant sit and wait there for 10 plus hours then i would really go insane.

[Wild Coyote]

Maybe call your caseworker to find out which doctor is the one designated to follow your outpatient care?


WC

[zijax]

Sounds like classic garden variety mania. You can't see it but we can. You're being given a gift here, a heads up, to go get help before you spin out of control. Of course mania feels good in the beginning, we all like it, we all feel kind of magical, but it's illusive, a trick, we are actually sick and getting sicker. You have the opportunity to catch it before it gets worse. And with biolar the higher you fly the farther you fall. Remember the fallout that happens after the mania. No fun. So we try to stay even.