i keep thinking everyone wants to hurt me and i am supposed to see the other psychiatrist in a few days and i am super scared cause i dont trust her and she is going to hurt me and i am even more scared cause i havent taken my meds in 2 days cause i am sure they are actually poison and i am really scared and i dont know what to do but i am scared to tell my caseworker cause she will ask me to take the meds only i cant and then i dont know what would happen and i have ruined everything and the angels are mad and there arebad spirits everywhere and i am trying really hard but i dont feel good and i am really scared and i want to cry.

[bizi]

This is psychosis talking some more.
you must take your meds.sorry
I can't stand to see you continue down this destructive path.
bizi

[Gettingitsoon]

Originally Posted by eden1515

i keep thinking everyone wants to hurt me and i am supposed to see the other psychiatrist in a few days and i am super scared cause i dont trust her and she is going to hurt me and i am even more scared cause i havent taken my meds in 2 days cause i am sure they are actually poison and i am really scared and i dont know what to do but i am scared to tell my caseworker cause she will ask me to take the meds only i cant and then i dont know what would happen and i have ruined everything and the angels are mad and there arebad spirits everywhere and i am trying really hard but i dont feel good and i am really scared and i want to cry.

Eden, are you still in hospital?
How have you not taken your meds in two days?
I know you think they are poison, but you're mistaken.
Is there anyone you can trust to tell these thoughts to?

Wishing you well

Take your meds and contact your doctors.

Originally Posted by Gettingitsoon

Eden, are you still in hospital?
How have you not taken your meds in two days?
I know you think they are poison, but you're mistaken.
Is there anyone you can trust to tell these thoughts to?

Wishing you well

I am out of hospital now. And no I don't really trust anyone I am trying so hard I want to try and take the medication but even when I look at the packet I start freaking out and it is like no don't take that it is poison and it will hurt you and even if you so much as touch it it will hurt you and I don't want to keep hurting the Angels and all the spirits cause it is my fault they are stuck here and there is one that is watching me and I just I can't keep my head in one place. Do you think my caseworker wants to hurt me? Cause I know she would want me to tell her but I am scared she shouldn't be trusted either.

[bizi]

heavy sigh
bizi

[Gettingitsoon]

There IS no other way.
Take the meds, see your doc.
So sorry.

[mtnannie]

At least tell your social worker, t, or pdoc how your feel asap. Leave a message if you can't get in touch. Part of you knows that you can trust one of these people with the information, like you said, its probably your social worker. That will be a start toward getting you feeling better. I feel for you.

i told my caseworker she didnt really say much i dont even know what to do anymore i just want to curl up into a ball and disappear.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Eden don't you know this is the MI talking? You need to contact your pdoc and at least let them know this.

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Eden don't you know this is the MI talking? You need to contact your pdoc and at least let them know this.

the doctor is on leave till my appointment i am the first one they are seeing i cant contact them and i dont know what anything is anymore i just want to cry.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by eden1515

the doctor is on leave till my appointment i am the first one they are seeing i cant contact them and i dont know what anything is anymore i just want to cry.

If you start to feel too bad then go to the ER. It's better than being unmedicated at all. Nip this in the bud before you end up going away again.

i am trying i just dont know what to do everything is so hard right now like i am not dealing and i feel really sad again.

[Espurr1989]

Are you able to get some sleep? It might help your brain to rest it a little bit.

Originally Posted by Espurr1989

Are you able to get some sleep? It might help your brain to rest it a little bit.

i tried to nap but i couldnt i am trying so hard but i feel horrible and so sad again. like i am sinking back into the hole the dark cold deep hole where i was before i am too sad to even move and every time i try to move it is so slow and it takes me hour to get the motivation to do anything. i feel like i am about to start crying constantly i dont feel good at all.

[bioChE]

You said you stopped taking your meds. Did you start again? If not, that's likely your smoking gun.

Originally Posted by bioChE

You said you stopped taking your meds. Did you start again? If not, that's likely your smoking gun.

I only didn't take them for 2 nights I took it tonight only just though and I don't feel any better.