[Blaire]

I've been having a really hard time with depression/anxiety. I isolated for a couple months, but then this week I was really losing it and having thoughts of drinking and suicide, so I thought I better reach out to my support system and let them know I'm struggling. I received brief responses from friends that did not seem genuine, and no response at all from an online recovery support group I've been with for 19 months.

I'm feeling abandoned and rejected. I feel hopeless and like no one wants me. I'm trying to be objective and find a way to fix this or view it from a different perspective. But I really feel like no one wants to deal with me. I hate that I'm like this, and I want to tell them that I understand because don't like me either and I too wish I would just go away. But I'm also resentful.

Sorry this happened to you. It's tough when people reject you like that.

I don't have any solid advice, but I just want to let you know that I've been in the same boat before and it's no fun.

I do have one question, though: How good are your friends normally? Have they ever ignored you like this before?

i am so sorry this is happening to you it sucks i know the feeling and no one deserves that. do you have any other supports at all?

[hopeless2015]

Sending hugs and you can always reach out here. Keep posting if it helps

[bioChE]

You can always post and we'll always listen. Sorry you're feeling rejected.

[campervanman]

Most of us have been there and still going there my friend! "So your not alone" "Yes" this feeling is a horrible thing to experience. As the other threads have said when you feel like this! Just send a thread `ANYTIME` and we will always reply with kind words` and support!

Take care...................Al

[Unrigged64072835]

Sorry to hear that you're going through this. Keep posting here and we'll give you support.

[Blaire]

Thank you for understanding. I feel like the people around me don't take me seriously. I'm high functioning and have a job and normal looking life, so people always tell me I'm doing fine so don't worry. They don't understand how sick you can be and still look "fine" when you choose to present yourself to others. I just feel like I can't do this anymore and no one takes me seriously until I completely break down or it becomes physically obvious because I lose so much weight. When I reach out for help before it gets that bad, they tell me I'm doing fine or ignore me. I'm not fine. I feel like I'm dying, but in a way I can't explain to someone who doesn't have this.

(((((((((Blaire))))))))) I'm sorry that they were not more supportive. But it was good that you reached out. Then reached out again, here. Good for you! Seriously, because that shows great strength. You are also to be congratulated on trying to be objective and find a way to fix or view it from another perspective. That's important, but can be hard to do at such a time.

Know that you are not alone. Seems "presenting well" can be both a blessing and a curse. Wish I had some words of wisdom, but even without them, I want you to know that you are heard and what you're saying is very relatable.

[Blaire]

Thank you, I'm so glad you guys are here. I don't feel like anyone else understands.

[Bigmike727]

Sorry to hear you feel this way. I know the feeling of what you are going through, isolated myself for years and it only made my illness worse. Best thing you can probably do imo is what you are doing now is talk about it, that way you probably won't feel so alone. Things will get better. Hoping for the best.