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I have so many regrets. It seems like my whole life is one big regret. I regret my divorce, I regret my second marriage, I regret affairs I've had, I regret being BP, I regret being hospitalized four times and those are just the big things.
The only thing that I don't regret is having my daughter. She is the best thing that ever happened to me. Just wondering if there are others out there like me.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin "Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha ![]() |
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#2
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I live with many regrets, I think most of us do. What I have found though is that you should learn from them yes, but not let them control our lives. Example: I regret moving back in with my family knowing how they would treat me, but stupid me still went ahead and did it anyways. It bothers me everyday, but hey we all make mistakes in our life. Can't let it weigh you down, learn from it, try to find solutions to the problems you face which can be difficult if you are stuck in certain situations, but still possible in the future. Just hold on to the hope that things will get better over time.
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Diagnosis: Bipolar Type I w\ psychotic features, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder Medications: 0mg Prozac (Thank God), 10mg Zyprexa, 100mg Lamictal XR (for now may adjust as needed), 2mg Klonopin ![]() |
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#3
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I have a lot of regrets but I don't dwell on them. I try to focus on the present and what I can do in the present.
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I have lots of regrets and I admit at times I find it very hard to live with them.
I do the best I can to not think of them but I would be lying if I said I didn't dwell on them often.
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I just posted a similar post. But one thing I read but maybe don't practice to well is thinking of the past leads to depression, thinking about the future leads to anxiety, live in the moment.
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Lactimal 175 mg Pristiq 100 mg Gabapentin 1800 mg Klonopin 1mg. Major depression Social anxiety disorder |
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Oh yes. My biggest regrets center around how much debt I let myself go into. If I hadn't done that, I would actually have money to do things with my son.
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my regret is my wasted life ... and the fact I am still wasting it ....
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I regret getting this piercing. I used to regret my divorce but its been 13 years and he's remarried so...
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#9
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I have many regrets. My marriages, lost jobs, lost friendships, my stupidity at telling people my bipolar status. What do you do? I don't have a choice - I have to go forward
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“There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.” ― Laurell K. Hamilton, Mistral's Kiss BP II Rapid cycling ADD and just plain weird Vyvanse 70 mg Lamictal 400 mg Wellbutrin 150 mg Latuda 80 mg Seroquel 150 mg Tenex 2 mg Ropinorole 2 mg |
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People are pretty much clueless about what bipolar is. They think it means that youre going to murder them or something.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat - He who sings prays twice ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Risperdal .5 mg ![]() Gabapentin 600 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily |
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Sometimes I'm suffocating in regrets. I'm going through this now. I'm wishing I would have continued therapy as a teenager and gotten the help I needed. I feel too old to learn new tricks now.
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The Skeezyks' life is pretty-much just one big regret.
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Nope. Not one.
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No regrets, just life lessons. Some may have not been fun to learn, but it made me grow as a person.
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There are allot of regrets for I rarely forgive myself for the bad things I have done to others.
Tucson
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Dx: Bipolar I, ADD, GAD. Rx: Fluoxetine, Buproprion, Olanzapine, Lamictal, and Strattera. |
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I think everyone does to some extent. We all have done things we're ashamed of and we all have had a hard time forgiving ourselves at one point or another.
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Omg yes. I've written plenty threads on this. There's so many times I think about **** I've done and I cringe with disgust. Affairs, one night stands, driving high or drunk, telling people off. The list is a mile long! |
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Possible trigger:
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This is exactly how I feel.
About 1 1/2 years ago I experienced a moment where all my regrets from my entire life flashed into my brain one after another all in a matter of one minute (or less). It made me feel like the most terrible person on the face of Earth. It caused major unrest, depression and the feeling that I would be called out on everything I had done wrong. It scared the hell out of me. I have no idea what triggered it. |
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Yes, I regret not finishing school, and quitting and drum Corp that I had worked so hard for, even learning a new instrument, I had a meltdown the second day of move-ins/all day rehearsals, and quit. Both are big regrets.
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Of course I live with regrets. I regret not being healthier while raising my daughter - I regret missing things that were important to her.
I have many regrets, but I think the trick is learning to look forward and not creating *more* regrets along the way. |
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There are definitely many regrets in my life, most of them involving my family and friends. I wish I could turn back the hands of time and change some of the things I've said or done in the past.
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Dx: BP2 and MDD Current meds: 100mg Wellbutrin; 200mg Lamictal; 400mg Seroquel at night; Xanax 1mg/PRN; 100mg/PRN Trazodone at night for insomnia Diagnosed in May 2016 |
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I have regrets, some of them are old like how did I loose a business that was doing 2 million dollars a year in sales, why did I waste 4 years of my life living essentially homeless as a heroin addict. Some of them are new like why and what did I spend 800$ on during my last manic episode this summer. Why did my marriage fail, what could I have done to save it? Yeah regrets I have plenty.
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Ripose, something like that happened to me about 13 years ago, the parade of shame and regrets was like a speeded up movie reel, then turned into a hallucination that spanned all history moving backward, ending with 3-D crystalline forms that dissolved. Scared me, too. Thought I was insane. I probably am. My regrets are missed opportunities, paths not taken.
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I have regrets of not being more active in high school and college. I just did my classework and showed up. I was not in the band or any social club. In middle school I was a cheerleader for one year and after that I just gave up. Two years out of college I was talked into joining our alumni organization. A little later I was talked into taking a position on the board. I thought to myself here's my chance to do something. I will not say I regretted it per say. It was just a lot of work. I would be so exhausted after working full time and doing that too. But I felt like I did not want to let anyone down. I made a lot of friends through doing this work whereas with high school and college I had very few. Only one in college crazy part she has bipolar too. Back in college I had know clue I had bipolar. Once my symptoms started coming out I started getting behind in my board work. I was forgetting to do things and I was dressing real sexy. One of my friends which a lot were older pulled me to the side and told me she noticed it. Well I thought to myself she needed to mind her on business that I looked fine. Looking bad I really regret that it continued. I would have men from our meetings try to pick me up and I liked the attention. I never got involved with them. I was going through the having self-esteem soaring out of control. Growing up I had reckless sex and I was irritable all the time. As an adult in my 20's I did cheat on a few boyfriends. In my 30's I was in one relationship and I did not cheat. I did break up with a boyfriend for one whole summer and I got involved with someone else "way" younger than me. Then reality hit me and I cut that off and went back to my ex. I was trying to re-call something about my moods When I was growing up. I asked my mom and she just said I was mean with a smart mouth. She's not the most intuned person and is not supportive of my mental health. I do not know when my onset was a few times on this board I said 36. That's because that's when my symptoms started really coming out one by one then together and I was then diagnosed. I never had problems functioning on a job accept if I was not being treated the same as others or not being spoken to in a respectable way. Then they would see a different side of me. Now I could not do customer service jobs. I needed to be at a desk with a computer and some reports to complete. Two months ago I sat back and thought about my childhood I had abuse too. I regret not asking for help
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