i dont think i am sick the doctor said i was psychotic again today but i dont think i am i think the doctor is trying to trick me so that they can keep hurting the angels and i dont want to keep taking the medication because i am sure it is poison and the doctors are putting stuff in my head to hurt me but no one believes me and i am really scared and i want to cry am i wrong about all this or ugh i dont even know anymore.

[bizi]

When you are sick and psychotic for so long like you have been it is hard accepting that you need help.
Your pdoc is right.
How is your relationship with your mother going?
bizi

Your doctor is right. You need to take your meds and allow your doctors to help you.

Originally Posted by bizi

When you are sick and psychotic for so long like you have been it is hard accepting that you need help.
Your pdoc is right.
How is your relationship with your mother going?
bizi

but i dont know what to do anymore i really dont think i am sick i cant be everything else makes sense i dont know what to do i feel really really bad i want to cry and everything hurts so much.

my mum is going fine

[Anxiousvalkyrie]

I agree with this others on this one. Your doctors are only trying to help you. Let them. Good luck. I hope you find some peace soon.

Are you sure the doctors want to help me?

Eden, I feel confident the doctor wish to help, not hurt you. With how bad you are feeling, I'm sure you realize you need help of some kind. You can't go on like this Eden. (((Hugs))). You will need to trust someone to help you.

Doctors take an oath to "do no harm". They will lose their license to practice if they hurt you. You have rights.

[st0psign]

if you didn't have a trickle of hope that the drs are trying to help you, you wouldn't be here asking us if what the drs say is true or not. I think there is a part of you that knows the drs are right. it might be hidden away, but you wouldn't be here if you didn't think you were ill. I hope you start taking your drs advice soon, I think things will start to turn around for you if you're compliant with your treatment program. they may not seem like much of a help at times but that's what the drs are there for, to try to help you. I promise they're not shoveling poison at you. take your meds .

i am trying i just dont know what to think anymore i just want to cry

[bizi]

are you taking your meds now?
still talking to angels and getting on the furniture?
Good luck to you.
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

are you taking your meds now?
still talking to angels and getting on the furniture?
Good luck to you.
bizi

i am taking the meds and the angels are still around but i am not standing on things i have been crying mostly

(((eden)))

my psychologist said i was psychotic too. i am tired and i feel like i am going to cry again.

[DelusionsDaily]

Eden I know this is really hard for you between being on meds and trusting these professionals. It is such a HUGE step what you're doing. Please listen to the people you've found here for support and give your team more time to help you. Vent all you need but try to keep on this path...it might take some time but they really are trying help.

i am really really trying but it is so so hard i want to cry all the time and i am so so sad everything hurts so much.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I'm sorry you're sad

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

I'm sorry you're sad

i honestly just want to cry all the time

[bizi]

Are you seeing a therapist, YOu need to be seen ASAP. they will tell you coping skills and help you deal with your sadness.
You have alot to talk about and change is hard.
You have been ill for so long.
I am sorry it is so hard right now.
Things will get better with time and therapy.
bizi
((((HUGS))))

Originally Posted by bizi

Are you seeing a therapist, YOu need to be seen ASAP. they will tell you coping skills and help you deal with your sadness.
You have alot to talk about and change is hard.
You have been ill for so long.
I am sorry it is so hard right now.
Things will get better with time and therapy.
bizi
((((HUGS))))

Yes I am seeing a psychologist he is the only one who I tell everything to. But he is also the one who called the police on me before idk I mostly trust him.

[Gabyunbound]

Originally Posted by eden1515

Yes I am seeing a psychologist he is the only one who I tell everything to. But he is also the one who called the police on me before idk I mostly trust him.

It must be such a relief to trust your psychologist and to share things with him! Maybe you could ask him if the doctors are trying to hurt you -if he says no, would you trust his answer? I hope you will. He could be a big part of your path towards healing.

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

It must be such a relief to trust your psychologist and to share things with him! Maybe you could ask him if the doctors are trying to hurt you -if he says no, would you trust his answer? I hope you will. He could be a big part of your path towards healing.

I have asked him before he has said he doesn't think they want to hurt me. He also said I am psychotic I try to trust his answer but then I always think maybe he is wrong.