[*59*]

I am awakening spiritually and have gotten down into some pretty deep and painful issues. I feel so scared because I have gotten delusional with my thoughts at least I think. The problem is that when my thoughts become delusional I don't know if they are true because they seem logical but something clicks that maybe these thoughts are not quite right. I do know that this awakening is happening to and thru me. And so I guess I need some confirmation that I am ok. Being bi-polar is so scary when I just feel crazy and to not know really either way.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry to hear this

Do you see a therapist?

[gayleggg]

I would talk it over with my doctor or therapist just in case. If it doesn't feel right it probably isn't.

[kecanoe]

would you be comfortable sharing some of your thoughts? I too have had a spiritual awakening and have a MI. It helps me to check out what I am experiencing with other people. Of course, those are people whom I trust, so maybe sharing here is not going to work for you. But if not here, could you share with someone you know?

[*59*]

I spent 4 days not wanting to do anything outside of my room, but just wanted to be comfortable being with myself. I had a telephone session with a spiritual teacher and I saw myself vacillate between laughter to crying within the hour. Seeing myself go from feeling comfortable to extreme emotions just frightened me like I couldn't trust myself.