[Cdnstargazer]

So... something I've started realizing, is that I misinterpret pretty badly. I don't know if it's the bpd or the bipolar or just some weird flaw of mine.

For example:
I was at work. My spouse got home from a trip. She saw a used glass of wine by the sink. I had told her I wouldn't be drinking much because I feel loopy on the meds still.

She said "I say this with love, but I saw the wine glass and-"

And it sent me into an anger. How dare she accuse me when I've been so good. It's not fair. It was our roommates glass (it was).

It wasn't until hours later I realized I had gotten my back up and run with defending myself when she just merely brought something to my attention. Now I should mention in the past, I have done some awful things in our relationship... habits I have since quit.

So what do you think? Can you relate?

sounds like a bpd thing to me and yes i can relate.

I agree with Eden. It sounds like BPD, although I'm not a dr.

But FWIW...
I don't have BPD, and I only act that way when I'm in an episode.

[ddysgrl79]

Originally Posted by Cdnstargazer

So... something I've started realizing, is that I misinterpret pretty badly. I don't know if it's the bpd or the bipolar or just some weird flaw of mine.


For example:

I was at work. My spouse got home from a trip. She saw a used glass of wine by the sink. I had told her I wouldn't be drinking much because I feel loopy on the meds still.


She said "I say this with love, but I saw the wine glass and-"


And it sent me into an anger. How dare she accuse me when I've been so good. It's not fair. It was our roommates glass (it was).


It wasn't until hours later I realized I had gotten my back up and run with defending myself when she just merely brought something to my attention. Now I should mention in the past, I have done some awful things in our relationship... habits I have since quit.


So what do you think? Can you relate?

I can totally relate. I have BPD and I fly into mad rages over the littlest things. I'm so blessed that my husband is so understanding and has the patience of an angel.

I guess I would need to know the extent of your anger and reaction to answer this with more certainty, but this is my take.

Basically EVERYONE does this sometimes. Every person I've known for any length of time has over-reacted or misinterpreted things from time to time. It happens for various reasons....maybe we are stressed, not sleeping well, hormones, hungry, etc. you mentioned that the meds are still making you loopy....well that could surely bring your usual into a more sensitive mode.

So to answer your question, yes, I can relate. Most people can if they are being honest. When I'm in a mood episode, I don't interpret MANY things correctly....I feel very confused about a variety of things.

Regardless of the cause of your reaction, you obviously feel bad about it and can clearly see you didn't act as your best self in this situation. That shows me you are self aware and able to take responsibility for your actions.....you sound like a good person to me so don't beat yourself up too much. (((Hugs)))

[Theseus]

I can relate. I think it's a natural defensive reaction. So many of us have been hurt in so many ways we try to defend ourselves even when we don't really need to.