Can't do it anymore

I have now been in the hospital for 3 weeks. They just said I will probably be here at least 2 more weeks. I just can't do it anymore. They have stopped me from cycling but now I am in a deep depression. I really just want to die.

I'm so sorry you feel trapped someplace you don't want to be. But you said you can't take it anymore and you just want to die....can you see how it might be important to stay a few more weeks so things can improve further? I know it's hard, but at least you are being looked after and can have your meds changed if needed. (((Hugs)))

Sorry to hear that you're having a rough time.

If you are the kind of person who plays by the rules, you will have to. I'm sorry, but that is just how the world works. You are not alone. I hope you feel better soon.

It will get better. Your brain has been through so much in 3 weeks. It needs to heal and you will feel better.

Being somewhere you don't want to is frustrating. My longest inpatient stay was 10 days I believe. I can imagine that after that it gets really old! Group after group- watching people leave when you can't. But they take wanting to die seriously. This last time I was only in for 3 days. I guess I seemed ok talking to the pdocs.

I've never been hospitalized for an MI, but I have been in the hospital for weeks on end and it is frustrating. Hang in there, I hope things start to get better for you soon.

I hope things get better for you soon....hugs

Oh, please give your treatment more time to work, sometimes it takes longer. Deep depression is completely butt-kicking, until it begins to lift. Hang in there, stay connected to the beautiful person you are, even if it feels like you're missing in action.

It takes time to stabilize after all the med changes you've probably been put through.

I got the paperwork to sign a 72 hour notice. I am thinking about signing it tomorrow. Not sure what the doctors will say though.

What is that?

They have 72 hours to let me go or commit me.

Is it worth the risk of being committed?

I was admitted without my permission last time. Had to sign that I was voluntary. Courts get involved if your involuntary

I can always rescind if it looks like they will commit me.

I know you can do it. I have been hospitalized 5 times with my longest being a year in a state hospital. I know you feel like giving up, I did too and I tried ,which made my stay longer. You can do this, you will have to fight. I have peers that say the same thing and I tell them to fight through the hopelessness, the numbness, the negative self talk and voices. You are needed here, you are valuable. People with MI, trauma and abuse need you to let them know they are not alone and they can get passed all this. Message me if you want to talk, I will try to reply as quickly as possible. Much love and peace.

Oh my god the nurses here are driving me crazy. They won't do their freaking jobs. I am so irritable today that I wanted to throw a chair. I took two klonopin to calm down and then they just gave me something else that I can't remember the name but it is supposed to be better than klonopin. I complained to the doctors about the nurses and even got my nurse changed for the night because I couldn't stand another night with the one I had. Is it so hard to ask them to do their jobs? Whatever happened to patients first? Half the time the nurses are hiding in the back so you have to page them and maybe 20 minutes later you will see them. So frustrated. Thank god for the nurse I have tonight or I might have thrown some furniture.