[Theresa1991]

I feel kind of very energetic still and I get these phases very often. More than like just feeling REALLY happy. I get that too but not so much. Anyway when I get so energetic I feel kind of good and fast and somewhat mighty but I also feel really angry and aggressive and get a lot of bad thoughts. Can hypomania be like that too, like not feeling very very happy but still not sleeping and sped up and all?

And today I was just really tired and wanting to go home but I had law clases and then something started that I have since I was a child. I think it is calles hypersensitivity or something. It's like everything is louder than it really is and like the voices and noises are really inside of my head and not outside. Colours are brighter, up to the point that it hurts. Also my field of vision suddenly seems double its former size and I seem to be able to see more things at a time. I notice every movement, every sound and it's just too much so I start to get so aggressive that I want to hurt the people who are clicking their pens and all but obviously I never give in but still it is so exhausting and just a pain in the *** to have to stay in my seat while wanting to scream and run away from everything into a cave where no lights or sounds can find me.

When I'm euphoric but agitated they call it mixed. A few days ago that is what the doctors said I am and I would agree with that right now.

((Hugs))

[Wander]

I agree. It sounds mixed. Are you seeing you psychiatrist soon? Maybe a med change will help. Sorry this is so tough for you.

[Coffeee]

Hypomania can be like that, not happy just like you are describing.

[Wander]

Just want to reiterate that it definitely sounds like hypomania or even mixed - hypo and depression at the same time. The way you describe it sounds exactly like what I have experienced before. Are you seeing a psychiatrist and/or therapist? Meds might help calm you down.

how are you today?

[Theresa1991]

Hey guys, thank you for your answers! Yes, I do actually feel kind of hyper, then sometimes just depressed, but all that energy is sure to be back within at least a day or two. My problem is that I don't have any diagnosis and do not take any meds therefore. I just went to a clinic and had an appointment with a psychologist. I told her about all that and that I was barely hanging on. She is going to get me diagnosed with a doctor. She says I might be bipolar, borderline disordered or with add. Or a little of everything, haha. Hoping to get answers and help soon, to get me stabilized.

I hope you get the answers you seek and effective treatment for the symptoms you find unmanageable (((hugs)))

[Wander]

When do you see the psychiatrist? Can you hang on till then?

[Theresa1991]

I went to the psychologist today, she is gonna diagnose me but the next appointment is in two weeks, with a psychiatrist at the side. She asked me if I needed to be hospitalized but I don't think so and moreover I don't want to because I am gonna miss out on a lot of stuff concerning my work...

If things change and you don't feel you are safe, go directly to the hospital.