Waking up scared and disturbed each morning

Past few days I've waked up all shaky and scared. I know I had some bad dreams, but I can't remember them, so I cannot use my "lucid dreaming" strategy where I make up satisfying end to them.

It last for hours.

I just hope I am just in bad mood phase (I haven't seen the sun for week, it's so cloudy and foggy and nasty here, I wonder if the sun still exist at times).

I hope this is no premotion.

I am trying to get myself productive. Which is no problem. I am a workaholic. I try be do gooding, and I had some good moments, but also a diplomatically worded rejection from place I really really counted on.

Tried to cure my emotional woes at the at Little Hanoi, because well... spicy food and cheap *** make up and clothes usually works. Good news is.... I can still enjoy the totally human things. May sound silly, but it... getting excited over this stuff is somewhat progress to me. After my summer trip to Ukraine I had this inability to enjoy the girly things and I felt I shouldn't be spending money on myself. Or enjoying myself. So this and being able to go out with my friends is actually good.

Still.

I am just very... restless, more than usual.

There are times when having peace and contentment on my mind while falling asleep has greatly helped throughout the night and into the next morning. So, maybe try falling asleep while pondering satisfying ends to dreams?

I can relate Venus. I'm glad you are able to get some comfort from the little things we humans tend to like....good food, company, clothes and girly stuff. When these things can bring a smile to my face, I know I'm not too far gone.

I hope you have a beautiful day filled with sunshine but if not,I hope you can find joy in some other things.

(((Venus)))

I find it quite difficult this time of year because of the lack of sunlight and the fact that I live in the Midwest where it tends to get bitter cold during the winter months. I try hard to keep my mind off of it, but it definitely hasn't been easy. Hang in there as best you can and I hope things improve for you soon

Here in Northern California we have relatively mild winters but the bitter cold here and lack of light and rain really bring me down. We get some sun but not much right now.....it's after 8am and it's still dreary outside and it will start to get dark around 4:30 I think.

I too have been having bad dreams. I think it's my political anxiety transfering into dreams.