[franz kafka]

I've been emailing with tdoc - who I will meet on Wednesday - about my situation, and she suggested I go to the ER tomorrow if I'm still feeling the way I am now.

What I told her: I'm having urges to buy razors. I'm having racing thoughts and I can't concentrate on reading (I'm a grad student). I'm having issues with sensory overload too. I've also had some trouble with med compliance.

Am I really that bad? To be fair, I did self-harm slightly tonight. But I don't think that means I need hospital. I really don't want to go to hospital.

I would refer to the professionals. I don't self harm and if I started cutting myself with razors I would clearly need to be hospitalized. For people that self harm I know this can be much different and I honestly don't know enough about it to give an opinion. From my point of view I think if someone is cutting themselves a hospital isn't a bad idea.....but I know with self harm issues it's much more complicated than this.

I'm so very sorry you are feeling so bad and confused. ((((Hugs))) I hope you can get some advise which reassures you.

[Moose72]

Don't buy the razors.

Listen to your favorite music. Maybe something soothing?

[franz kafka]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I would refer to the professionals. I don't self harm and if I started cutting myself with razors I would clearly need to be hospitalized. For people that self harm I know this can be much different and I honestly don't know enough about it to give an opinion. From my point of view I think if someone is cutting themselves a hospital isn't a bad idea.....but I know with self harm issues it's much more complicated than this.

I'm so very sorry you are feeling so bad and confused. ((((Hugs))) I hope you can get some advise which reassures you.

I'm not a regular self-harmer. When I get to this point, it's usually because things have gone wrong on a number of levels. Right now it's my stress from dealing with all of the sensory problems. I have all this pent up anxiety because I am constantly unable to deal sensorily in my environment. The racing thoughts are part of the problem. I can't do anything that I want to do... read, write... except in crazy spurts of creativity that go away and leave me with nothing.

Sorry, I'm rambling. There's a lot.

[franz kafka]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Don't buy the razors.

Listen to your favorite music. Maybe something soothing?

Too late :-/ I tried music and exercise but they didn't work for long enough. It's a good suggestion, though, thank you.

Originally Posted by franz kafka

I'm not a regular self-harmer. When I get to this point, it's usually because things have gone wrong on a number of levels. Right now it's my stress from dealing with all of the sensory problems. I have all this pent up anxiety because I am constantly unable to deal sensorily in my environment. The racing thoughts are part of the problem. I can't do anything that I want to do... read, write... except in crazy spurts of creativity that go away and leave me with nothing.

Sorry, I'm rambling. There's a lot.

If you only self harm when you are really bad then perhaps that is something to consider? You are doing it now, therefore things are not going well and perhaps the hospital would keep you safe or from accidentally cutting too deep or causing infection?

[zijax]

I self harm from time to time, last August was last time and I didn't go to hospital. I was able to stop by distracting myself. I went out and ran errands or went for a walk or called someone, I don't remember exactly the method but it worked. I didn't continue. How can you distract yourself?