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Old Dec 03, 2016, 07:26 AM
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So sorry that Anna passed. It's hard believe me...but you have precious memories of her and keep those close to your heart. Thats what I do
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 10:05 AM
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I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. (((((((((BeyondtheRainbow)))))))) Keep those warm memories with you
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 10:15 AM
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I'm so sorry you lost your Anna....big hugs!!!
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 10:44 AM
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I'm so sorry you lost Anna. I lost a beloved cat 4 years ago and it is still hard. I only had her 5.5 years.
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 11:21 AM
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Sorry for the loss of you beloved pet.

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Old Dec 03, 2016, 01:43 PM
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I'm so so sorry

My furbaby -Schnookie- was found to have a pancreatic tumor several months ago, they thought she didn't have long to live, but she's still going strong (though with occasional bouts of pancreatitis). I can't imagine her leaving me, I just can't. I've had her for 14 of her 16 years (she was a rescue cat).

What helped me when my last kitty passed away was to keep a journal/scrap book of her. I put photos in there and pretty butterflies and other sorts of things you can buy in those scrap book shops (i.e. papyrus). I also wrote in it as a journal for as long as I needed to. How I missed her, what I missed about her, what I remembered of her, the good times, her last hours... I wrote it in the first person to her, as if I were talking to her. This helped me immeasurably, and maybe it could help you too?

I also had a kind of ritual, lit a candle and put all of her things on a table (her bed, her blanket, toys, her ashes, and carrier, etc.) and wrote in the journal. Then I put everything in the carrier and put it in the closet, and the ashes on the bottom of a bookshelf (I wanted it around but to not be constantly reminded).

I haven't looked at the journal/scrap book since I stopped writing in it, it would make me too sad, but I know it's there, along with her ashes, and that's enough.

When Schnookie passes away I plan on doing the same with her. I can't imagine getting through it without doing so. Maybe you could give it a try. Meanwhile, also, you need time to let yourself mourn. It will take time and tears, but the day will come when you will be able to think of her without it being so unbearable.

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Old Dec 03, 2016, 04:54 PM
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I have lost a number of beloved cats over the years and it is a very specific kind of painful hell. I am so, so, so sorry that you lost your precious Anna. Please be gentle with yourself and your grief. My loving thoughts are with you. You have an angel now (((HUGS)))
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 05:04 PM
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I'm so sorry. I'm sending warm thoughts and hugs for you. (((BeyondtheRainbow)))
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 05:16 PM
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I am thinking of you and Anna. ((((Hugs)))
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 07:32 PM
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This is so hard......I've stayed with my mom nearly all day (she lives next door) because I don't want to be alone. If I'm alone I can't control the crying. My other cat is acting rather freaked out by the entire thing which is just making it more stressful. He's seeming better now so hopefully that sticks.

This is such a hard month (2 months really--Thanksgiving through my birthday) and this loss is huge. I emailed my pdoc to see if I can up my AD to get through this time, not because I want to avoid grieving but because I realistically think this is too much to handle without help from my meds. Hopefully she'll get back to me.

I just can't believe this happened. It seems so fast from when I realized things weren't quite right until she collapsed and started having trouble breathing yesterday evening. 30 minutes after that she was gone. I'm glad she did not suffer but it just seems unreal. The odd thing is that she had been using pee pads because with her arthritis kitty litter was painful. I picked some up Thursday and had this weird feeling that they might not be used. 24 hours later she was gone and the box never even made it to my house from my mom's.

I'm just so sad and feel shocked. None of it was like I thought. Even the euthanasia wasn't as I expected. It was very peaceful and not scary. It was very, very good that it happened when my mom was home and could drive us while I held my kitty wrapped in a towel and the vet's office was great. But it doesn't feel real.

I don't know what else to say. This is so very hard. I've lost pets before but Anna was very special. I wrote an entire thesis with that cat on my lap.

For now I'm hoping that I sleep through tonight. Last night I kept waking up crying and was up for an hour or two too upset to sleep.

I hate when things that are naturally hard happen (like this) and then are made even harder by bipolar mood swings and PTSD.
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 07:42 PM
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I hope your sorrow subsides soon. It sounds like the shock is starting to set in. I've always had dogs & know how paiful the lost friendship is. You have fond recollections of Anna; try to keep those close.
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 07:52 PM
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I'm so sorry. ((((((Huge hugs)))))))
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Old Dec 03, 2016, 07:54 PM
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Old Dec 04, 2016, 01:31 AM
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I'm so sorry you lost sweet Anna. The pain of losing a pet is indescribable. I wish you healing and peace in this hard time.
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Old Dec 04, 2016, 01:34 AM
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Oh Rainbow, my heart breaks for you. The loss of a pet is like losing a part of yourself. Allow yourself to grieve and when the time is right, let another one into your heart.
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Old Dec 04, 2016, 08:21 PM
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I'm sorry for your loss, I have no other words other than you are in my thoughts. Lots of hugs to you.
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Old Dec 04, 2016, 08:53 PM
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And now my other cat who is 14 and has had a few bouts of pretty severe pancreatitis and has some kidney issues so his health is fragile too just came up to me and he has a huge lump on his head. It doesn't seem sore although he doesn't want me messing with it either. I have no idea what he could have done to get it. It wasn't there earlier. So I assume it's an injury but am completely freaked out that it is either a bad injury or something wrong with him. If I could just find something that could have landed on him I'd feel better but there is nothing and this is not a small bump; it's visible under his hair even from a distance.

I'm so scared...only one loss at a time...
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