[Ocean Swimmer]

I've been goofing off for weeks.
Now, big day Sun. Foster kitten goes in for spaying.
Index tint hair, pedicure, manicure, pick out clothes.
Get her bed and toys ready.
I never spread out my chores. Wait till last day and try to pull everything off.

Are you depressed? It sort of sounds that way from your other threads.

I ask because procrastinate a lot when I'm depressed. It's like, there are things I know I need to do, but I can't get myself to do them until the last minute. I just have no desire to do them right away.

I also procrastinate when I'm not depressed, but it's not as bad as when I am depressed.

Either way, good luck with your kitty on Sunday!

[Ocean Swimmer]

Thanks Blue.
Yes a low grade I don't give a crap feeling with no energy.
But I've been a procrastinator always.
I think it's part of BP. Driving yourself to a nervous rush. A semi hypo state.
Are you good today ?

[Icare dixit]

I'd really like to know whether (and to which extent) it's BP.

I do believe it's trying to feel (a bit manic). But it's a delusional belief that mania is necessary because I cannot function otherwise (which is also true but a bit chicken-and-egg), for me. It's perfectionism.

I also really fear mania, so I just freeze.

And that's at least not (typical of) BP: I do it to fail.

So it's certainly not just BP, for me. But I'd like to know what exactly, if anything, about it is.

[Ocean Swimmer]

I'll admit my personality has been affected by BP. I've had this disease for over 35 years.
So when I look at my faults, I see them thru the lens of BP.
If I have a temper tantrum, or I want to isolate. Or I'm afraid to leave the house. Even if I can't force myself to shower everyday.
Also. When I'm on a roll. Designing new buildings and I just can't shut it off. Stay up all night working. Filling volumes with plans ideas material lists budgets.
The people I know don't work like that. They plod along.
It's hard to explain.

[wildflowerchild25]

I e always been a procrastinato regardless of my mood state. Like today, I can pretend I'm going to do my homework tomorrow but reality is I won't do it until Sunday night. I'll spend all Sunday thinking about it and being too anxious to open my computer as I have been every Sunday. I'm just used to it by now. It's an anxiety thing for me. I avoid until I cannot possibly avoid anymore.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Sometimes I will break the job into pieces if I know from experience that it won't get complicated.
For these times, like getting ready for a long trip, I make a list. Read it often. Prioritize tithe tasks.
Might work for you!

[wiretwister]

I was going to write a very insightful response ... but I will try again later ... maybe ...

[xRavenx]

I can relate. Surprisingly, I am pretty good when I'm at work. I am able to keep up with the method of trying to prioritize and get the most important stuff over with, because I am very, very forgetful.

However, in my home life outside of work, I procrastinate a whole lot. I am terrible at keeping up with financial stuff and wait until the last minute. I wait until certain rooms get cluttered and then give up on doing anything about it until a much later time. Mail is hard for me to keep up with. I hate housework and have a hard time with it, although it's part of being a "grown up."

I do believe the above suggestions are good ones as far as breaking tasks into smaller steps. Also, do not beat yourself up about it! We all have strengths and weaknesses. Some acceptance, while trying to make small improvements is a great start.