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Dec 05, 2016, 09:34 AM
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Well, I'm 40, just diagnosed Bipolar I 2 years ago and I have to say, I HATE THIS! I feel like I have to start all over again. I almost miss not knowing that I had a mental illness and that I was just a ***** up. I hate the meds, I hate my doctors, and I just feel like I can't deal anymore. I feel almost flat. Nothing gives me pleasure anymore. I have been taking DBT, going to support groups, trying to find people that know how I feel. My friends and family have no idea.
I guess I just needed to vent. |
 BipolaRNurse, Icare dixit, tiredspirit, xRavenx
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Dec 05, 2016, 11:02 AM
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Yes! This sucks! I'm 43, diagnosed 2011. I've grown to be very grateful for my meds and docs. The flatness was a temporary sensation for me. Maybe it was that I was used to feeling stronger than normal emotions and had to go to feeling a normal level. But eventually, it just felt normal. My creativity took a hit at first, but I got it back mostly.
Hang in there. You're on the right track!
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Dec 05, 2016, 11:08 AM
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Welcome to PC.
I hope you find plenty of helpful information and support here.  WC |
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Dec 05, 2016, 11:10 AM
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I'm 46 and was diagnosed bp 2 about a year and a half ago, just now got a good med combo going and am starting to feel like myself again. Try to be kind to yourself, it sounds like your doing all the right things. I understand your frustration. Hugs
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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Dec 05, 2016, 12:25 PM
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I guess you have now found (at least) some (actually very many) people who know (more about) how you feel.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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Dec 05, 2016, 12:33 PM
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Welcome. This board is so supportive and busy! You've found a good spot. I was diagnosed in 2006 and have been here almost the whole time. (This is my 2nd screen name. First one died). As you go through therapy DBT and seeing your psych dr you'll learn the signs and symptoms of your illness and it won't seem so confusing.
Welcome!
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Dec 05, 2016, 12:55 PM
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Dec 05, 2016, 01:23 PM
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Thank you all! I am trying, I really am. It feels like I am just trying to learn everything again, and sometimes it gets overwhelming. I'm glad I found this though. Thank you all again!
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Dec 05, 2016, 02:24 PM
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Welcome! I understand how you feel. Having Bipolar sucks. This is a great place to vent and have support. I went some years before getting the proper care. I went through a string of not very good therapists and doctors before I found the right fit and now feel confident about the care I'm getting. I hope you find what you need soon too. You deserve to have a doc you feel comfortable with. Even with meds, I still struggle, but it's day by day. That's the nature of this condition, although it's very frustrating. Keep posting whenever you feel the need!
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Dec 05, 2016, 03:20 PM
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Welcome to PC. I've been a member since the day after I was diagnosed, and I have to say this is the best place to unload and talk about how living with this frustrating condition affects me. I'm the only person in my real life world who has BP; the people here "get it", so for me, coming here is like putting on an old comfortable pair of slippers after dancing in too-tight heels.
Glad you're here. Enjoy, and vent all you want...it's what we're here for.
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DX: Bipolar 1 Anxiety Tardive dyskinesia Mild cognitive impairment RX: Celexa 20 mg Gabapentin 1200 mg Geodon 40 mg AM, 60 mg PM Klonopin 0.5 mg PRN Lamictal 500 mg Levothyroxine 125 mcg (rx'd for depression) Trazodone 150 mg Zyprexa 7.5 mg Please come visit me @ http://bpnurse.com |
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