Is it me? Or is everyone Bipolar?

and everyone else

Push for the hospital they can make quick, safe med changes.

I can't go to hospital..I have to go see my niece Wed..she knows I am coming..I promised...just glad I sobered my rearend up in time...

We are also hosting Christmas Eve at my house...bad idea...

Okay, you see your Dr. tomorrow right? What is your biggest issues right now? Have you ever tried an anti-psychotic? They kick in fast and at low doses deal with anxiety, sleep issues and some mood issues.

He has given me Lithium to try - fail...
Latuda - fail....

I can't remember what Lithium did...but Latuda made me feel like I drank 20 cups of coffee...he says - you clearly already have enough hyper energy and don't need that!

Then he called in Seroquel...told me that was all he could call in unless I came in office for emergency visit...and I told him I tried Seroquel and couldn't remember why I stopped it...so I asked him to call it in...he did...I had nosebleeds within 2 days and remembered why I didn't take Seroquel...

Then I started drinking! Then he called here a couple times and I avoided the calls.
So here I am today...but thankfully tommorow yes..I see him.

Hopefully zyprexa, geodon or abilify works for you. There are other ones too but you'll have to talk to him. Are you keeping a list of all the meds you've tried?

No I'm very bad at doing that...I figured it is all in my records..but to their benefit it IS all spread out...and I can't remember them all...and I'm not going thru the records either..but if they mention one I know if I had tried it or not....I haven't tried any that you have mentioned. But, you are right from here on out I CAN make a list...

The one I see that I see a lot of people doing well on is Lamictal....I also have been taking some herbal supplements (for sleep that work)...

I do take Gabapentin too and that DOES help with anxiety...but not with MOOD...or temper outbursts....or depression switching with adrenaline...So I feel blessed that he is seeing me tommorow...I don't know how that happened...I thought I missed an appointment last week with him while I was drunk and I didn't thank God.

My fear was because I'm new and missed an appt. he would already be agitated with me..I'm usually GOOD at keeping apts..drinking or not...I have had my b/f bring me drunk....which I told my GP will never happen again....the cops almost ended up being called or the ambulance.

He brought me there because I told them I was drunk and couldn't go and they called him and asked if HE could BRING ME. And he did...the aide told me the next time I went in..I was swearing my head off at her...and I LOVE HER. I said I hope I didn't swear at the Dr?

The Dr came in...I asked if I did...she said don't worry about a thing..just glad your better today..sigh...

thank you again MM....I am going to go do dishes or something ...anything to stop smoking cigs right now ....not helping my anxiety...lol.
You did thou...thanks.

I'm usually good at keeping appointments but between the car breaking and me being sick I look like a flake. I'm glad you were able to get to your appointment though. Most clinics around here don't care that much.

It's virtually impossible for someone to find stability if there is drinking and street drugs in the mix.

I so sorry about your niece I hope she is going to be ok .

Stay safe

Christina..the thing is...there is documented evidence that even without drinking and street drugs for 8 years I could not become stable....I'm either going to die from drinking alcohol or someone is going to find a medication that takes away the head madness so that I don't feel like i have to drink to make it go away.

Sitting outside the pdoc office yesterday and a guy walks out with his mother and his 2 year old child and he says to his mother (this guy was about 35)....he says - "she said I am Bipolar". His mother laughs and says...I knew it....

There we go...another diagnosis of Bipolar....I spoke up. The guy laughed and said "Yea, I'm just moody thats all"....I also know there are many connections between Bipolar and Borderline...I very much trusted the last facility I was with and they diagnosed me with Borderline...and it took them about 1 year to diagnose me.

This place...diagnosed me with Bipolar in 1 day...that is why I struggle so much with it....they hadn't even had many discussions with me at all.

Bipolar is med based but borderline is therapy based. Some times it's an easy dx other times not. The more psych records you have the easier it is. I'd ask next time why it's BP and not BPD.

I think inquiring and re-examining about the BPD is merited.

Christina's right. And it doesn't just go for BP of course -- the drinking isn't helpful in trying to gain stability for BPD either. But the evidence that you didn't stabilize when off it for so long seems telling.

Also considering your previous dx of BPD over far more thorough assessment...

It may well be that approaching treatment from a BPD angle would be more effective for stability. That doesn't eliminate the drinking issue of course, but gaining stability could well help with the urge to do that. They'd go hand in hand.

(It is possible to have both of course, just something worth investigating, imo.)

Innerzone, I do agree with you and I had said that the BPD took a facility a year to diagnose and I trust that diagnosis. I do also think I may have both.

I will address this with the therapist on the 28th to ensure that we are treating both.
Although, I know from reading about BPD and talking with the past facility there isn't much that can be done with BPD as far as medication.

I've been on new medication for 2 days...I don't know if it is helping yet...however, my Dr. said that Risperdone..helps immediately with rage, irritability...but takes a few weeks for the depressive side of my condition. I do notice (I don't know if it is because the Dr suggested it)...but I did notice the other day when I took the Risperdone during the day (as suggested)...I wasn't AS snappy...I was still snappy but noticed at least 2x where I was able to bite my tongue.

However, yesterday in a store...I left my carriage for a minute...and when I turned to retrieve it..it was gone and I yelled very loudly in the store...who took my carriage - YOU ****ING JERK!