I said no to suicide.

I was stressed today. I didn't talk to anybody, barely ate anything, didn't even smoke many cigarettes. I didn't want to leave the room. It's week one of Zoloft. And then I started to have some positive thinking. I started to realize that I have a place in this world, even though it seems dark now. Tonight, I'm going to go to bed early. I start a new job in two days, ugh. I don't know how I'll handle it, but somehow I will. I am going to try to defeat this dark side, even though I don't know how. Today has not been a good day. But tomorrow, it's a brand new day. The new year didn't start out well, but it's a new year. I know thins will change eventually. Either I will get a medication regimen that works, or I will learn to cope with this depression. I'm choosing to believe things will get better, even though every bone in my body wants to tell me otherwise. It's a new year, and I think this new year will be a good year.

I'd give Zoloft time to work and I'd call your Pdoc about what you've typed here. They may want to do some med tweaking.

I'm glad you said no to suicide.

So well written! All the best to you in 2017.

Thank you for sharing this.

You are amazing and inspiring

Good luck in 2017! Stay strong - so glad you said "no" to suicide. Love your positive thinking.

Positive thinking. Nothing better. With the possible exception of laughter. Good luck.

(((((earth angel))))

that's good you got that moment and decided not to take your life

these moments of inspiration/ wizdom happen when you least expect it

happy 2017

So inspiring, thank you for sharing!

Thank you for changing your mind and looking in a more positive direction.

Thanks for sharing. It takes courage to share. It takes courage to face life.


WC

Thank you for sharing this. My hope is that this year I can get the coping skills needed in order to keep my SIs at bay, as I'll be damned if I have to spend more time in the hospital. I'm trying hard to learn to accept myself for who I am and what I've done, and although I've made progress, I still have a lifelong road ahead, as many of us do I'm sure. I am grateful for places like this site where I feel more at ease with sharing what it is I'm feeling, without feeling as if I'm being judged or looked down upon.

Thanks for those words