Overwhelmed and sad

Just need to share.

I feel very overwhelmed right now. I started to work for the German foreign ministry on Monday and have to concentrate all day. At night I am in my hypo party rhythm. Haven't been alone for two weeks. Mostly sleep five to six hours a night, than once a week crash and sleep ten.

When the guy I was dating had to return to Mexico because of his Visa I started doing more and more stuff, went to see my family, felt like mixed, went back to Berlin, hypo, more and more projects, people, looking for a new flat (which is stressing me out), new work, just couldn't and can't stop doing stuff.

But my body is so tired and even though I can still feel the energy pusing through me like electricity and I can't sit still for more than a few seconds I feel that underneath all of this I am incredibly sad and afraid.

Next t appointment in one week. Next p in two. Want to take meds finally. My rhythm is killing me. Should stop drinking alcohol but then I don't sleep at all. Don't want to be sad and alone.

((((hugs)))))

we are all here for you when ever

Thank you!!
I can't stand the people at my workplace.
They are all so professional and I feel like a freak. I feel so utterly lonely. I can't stop the racing thoughts and I have so many things to do.

Thinking of you ...

I've heard it suggested that mania is a severe form of depression. In moments like the one you are in, that feels really real.
The first few weeks at a new work place are always tough, even without the extreme state you are in. Give yourself all the love you can, and call your pdoc. Tell them you are in crisis and need to be seen sooner. (((Hugs)))

Hmmmm...you've given me something to think about and maybe even research some more. I've never heard about mania being a severe form of depression, but that might explain why I've been feeling the way I've been feeling the last few months.

I can empathize with you right now, except for the fact that I've been at my same job for a little over 3 years now. There has been alot of anxiety building up in me, which in turn seems to be causing me to feel very overwhelmed. When I got out of the hospital last month I thought all was well and I was on the road to being a bit more stable. When I saw my therapist last night she could tell (as she usually can) that something was bothering me. The thing that frustrates me the most is that I can't seem to pinpoint exactly what it is that is making me feel the way I feel. There are so many emotions and I just can't seem to keep them under control. I wish you the best of luck with your new job. Alles Gute! (I think that's right, my German is a little rusty...LOL!!!)