[mossanimal]

I thought the depression broke but then it came back with a vengeance. I hate, hate, hate this. I work for myself and I can't concentrate on anything for more than 10 minutes. Hardly making money again.. and I know my wife is stressed. She isn't saying much because she knows I'm depressed. I seriously want to quit what I'm doing and just take a job..but we live so far north in the middle of nowhere there are no options. I refuse to work at a minimum wage type job because my status as artist/craftsman represents the last vestige of self-esteem that I have. My kids are proud to have a swordsmith father... and that means so much to me. But things can't go on this way either...

I've been trying to get into see my psychiatrist but we are still dealing with her being 'out of network' for insurance. Looks like we might have to just pay out of pocket until that gets cleared up. Yet again.. I'm a financial strain to my wife.

[Skeezyks]

[Ocean Swimmer]

Do you have a local Dbsa or nami group in your town?
Have you any coping tools? Like meditation. Awareness. Journaling?

[mossanimal]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

Do you have a local Dbsa or nami group in your town?
Have you any coping tools? Like meditation. Awareness. Journaling?

Well I will have to look up Dbsa and nami. I'm restricted to a lot of opportunities where I live. I live in what is considered the most depopulated county in the lower 48 states. We only have one small BH clinic, no bipolar support groups, etc.

I keep a sort of mood tracker in my shop.. which is becoming a rather work of abstract art in itself. I've never formally meditated. I've tended to use activity for that.. i.e. now I it's cross country skiing by myself. I used to play the didgeridoo for this purpose. :-) In California it was open ocean free-diving. The most calming thing ever.