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Because I think I'm starting to get it. Bad.
I usually get the happy kind so I'm not sure if that is what's going on or what I'm going to explode
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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I'd just scream at everybody around me. I remember those days.
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JACKIE!!!!. It's you finally. All the Bast!!!.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. Last edited by pirilin; Jan 21, 2017 at 07:29 PM. |
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Jacky I am living and breathing it right now, mines been brought on being ill and on prednisone.
I have been taking lots of hot showers it helps burn off some of my hostile thoughts. I seldom get the happy puppy rainbow stuff Feel better ((( hugs )))
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Hugs, jacky.
I pace and swear a lot, and then I scream and swear and throw things. I swear a lot. Hope you feel better soon!
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The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "I'm scared. I'm old. I want to go home!" 😁 - anonymous |
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My short-lived euphoric hypomania (recent) has turned dysphoric hypo, so I'm feeling the extreme irritability lately. I am quick to snap at others around me, although I feel guilty about it after. It's especially bad if they are putting any kind of pressure on me, because I can't handle it. Anger and anxiety are severe, and my thoughts are going fast, with me not being able to put the breaks on any of it, like I'm being held captive. Like others here, I pace. I am using my Klonopin to try to slow down, but it only helps a little bit. The emotional swings are still there.
(((hugs))) Sorry you are feeling that way. It can be a very miserable state of mind. If you don't notice any improvement, I hope you can talk to your pdoc about it soon. |
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I get so irritable that I yell and slam doors, throw things etc. I have no patience at all when in a mood like that. Venlafaxine helps me a lot.
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"Life is way too short to spend another day at war with yourself." |
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I start believing that people are thinking bad things about me/are angry at me, so I get uncontrollably angry and hostile. I say awful things to people. I remember during one hospitalization I snapped at the admission nurse and she wrote down that I had "hostile affect." Nothing could be further from my real personality.
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dx: schizoaffective bipolar type; OCD; GAD rx: clozapine, clonazepam PRN |
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I get extremely irritable which makes me drive like a manic, snap at people unfairly, walk very fast and even push through people cause I don't have the patience to pause for them and become quite hostile in conversation. Everything is going to slow for me and it drives me wild. The feeling is awful. The rage and intense, wild eyes I get make it clear to everyone else to back away. It is so uncomfortable and excruciating to endure which leads me to feeling suicidal. At times even meds don't help much and I have to just wait for it to pass, usually while IP for my safety.
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Angry mania feels like life has betrayed you and now you feel like smashing everything and crying at the same time.
It's awful. I get this at times and it's the worst nightmare to wake up from. When I'm thiscway I do drugs or drink or don't take care of myself. I even remain hypersexual but end up using sex as rebellion against life. I'm like a angry tebellious caged teenager looking to get back at my parents. It's scary. I hope you get well. Hugs. |
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I was so angry at the grocery store yesterday I literally started crying because I could not throw things at a guy who was taking too long in the checkout lane.
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I am so irritable right now it hasn't taken much for me to pop off.
The restlessness of the hypomania that took hold last week made the angry mood all the worse. The two seem to go hand in hand. Things seem to have improved this week but I still feel irritable. |
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When I experience angry mania I usually end up inpatient.
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^^ Angry rebellious teenager sums it up nicely.
I drive too fast. I become angry and irritable at even the smallest thing that doesn't go my way. I refuse to listen to any advice or even common sense. I snap at anyone who disagrees with me or if I suspect that they're trying to control me. I yell. I scream. I cry angry tears. And I feel completely justified doing so until the depression hits and I become suicidal. |
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This all makes me feel better...because i have been in angry hypo for about 6 months.
Glad I'm not alone...because I feel like a freak show daily. ![]()
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Well, I start writing "hate" for two entire pages into my diary. I get violent thoughts. I feel so energetic I just want to shoot somebodie's head off and I am the most pacifist person you can meet.
I annoy myself. I want to kick things. I am angry at everything. I feel like smashing things into pieces. When I was an adolescent I was wondering what the hell that was. I just wanted to destroy everybody and everything, including myself. Still get that. Take the edge off with MMA. |
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My angry + energy moods usually result in being too candid with how i feel about people who are serving me. If i feel like i got bad service or jipped i straight up call the cashier a *****.
Never ends well. Try to control yourself. |
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Wow, everybody! This ALL sounds so familiar!
Before I was diagnosed and got COMPETENT therapy, a COMPETENT psychiatrist, and meds, I would get so upset and angry I would scream and cry, sob huge tears -- for six hours at a time. Then, I would be so remorseful! I'd cry more. I used to feel like a "Sword of Damocles" was hanging by a thread, just above my head, waiting to fall and send me into a rage. I never knew when a rage would suddenly "fall" on me, set me off. These things never happen to me anymore, but I have gotten into rages fairly recently, when I feel like breaking things. I have thrown a few small objects that didn't do any damage. I hit my phone more than once, and broke it phone twice. One thing that helps -- I have made some fun message posters showing Grumpy Cat and other cats, saying things to me that help or encourage me. They are all lined up at the bottom of my screen, in Word, so can bring up the one that applies at the time. Of course, depression would follow soon after. I was teaching music then from home. I'd be so depressed my mother would have to call all my students to let them know I was ill. Occasionally, she could not reach the parent of one, and I'd put a sign on the front door that I was ill and could not teach that day. I would lie on the floor in despair, just inside and beside the front door so I could know if the child was okay. It was amazing to me that some parents would just drop their kid off, without finding out if I was home or not. I realized I'd need to caution ALL of the parents NEVER to leave their child, until they saw me in the doorway waving to them! |
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