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Feb 13, 2017, 11:06 PM
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So pretty damn depressed, why do I have to be bipolar but it could be worse ok let's start , I been having a small fling with a 20 year old guy , I'm a women 32 but that ended because I was robbed and he's on heroine , I don't care about the age but it's always younger guys , before this I have not had sex with any guy for a year , no idea why I can't stop ****ing but anyways I'm severely embarrassed and depressed... I gained like 25 pounds always looked up to Britney Spears... I keep binging and purging and yes I seen my councilor today . Yes I have a physiatrist, I'm on lemictal 200mg once a day then 50 mg at night , serquel 400 mg at night, gadapendian 3 times a day 600 mg each ... hum .... I love my husband and kids ... I stopped smoking today and first day in awhile I did not binge or purge but I know me abc I know my pattern .... I don't want to do this **** anymore , it's like bipolar is a cycle that won't let up ... maybe being a zombie would help .. oh forgot 1mg of xanax a day and the thing is I'm not ugly at all ... so it's not like omg I'm ugly so I need to sleep with people but I do have low self esteem... help me
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 Anonymous59125, bizi, HALLIEBETH87, Wander
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Feb 14, 2017, 12:12 AM
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Let me get this right.
You love your husband but had a fling with a 20 year old? Were you hypomanic?  bizi
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Feb 14, 2017, 12:15 AM
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Yes I was and then I woke up and realized omg what did I do and now at the every bottom , I'm scared to fall asleep and I'm so freaking hot , I'm burning up and now it's taking me forever to just move a limb . |
| Anonymous59125
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Feb 14, 2017, 12:17 AM
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Are you sick? Do you have a fever?
What does your therapist say? can you see a doctor? How old are your children? I am getting ready to go to bed. will check back in the morning. I am sorry it is hard right now for you. bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Feb 14, 2017, 12:54 AM
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I'm having a anxiety/panic attack
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| Anonymous59125
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Feb 14, 2017, 04:58 AM
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It sounds like you need a med change of some sort as you have had a hypomanic episode and are now depressed(did I read that right?). Do you have a therapist? Talking to someone would really help a lot too. I'm so sorry this awful illness has been throwing you around. Keep posting. We are here to support you. Stopping smoking suddenly may affect your mood either way. I have a cousin who goes hypo every time she tries to quit. Are you looking after yourself with diet, exercise, self-care etc? Are you safe?
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Feb 14, 2017, 04:42 PM
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I do have a therapist and a psychiatrist , I go through IU and he's one of the best in America .., I called twice today and he's always traveling so he has a prodigy under him and nobody has called me back ... omg I did just stop smoking yesterday, not self caring at all , I usually look pretty good , I now look like the opposite of a Barbie , my husband started working nights this week and usually when I feel ya know off balance at night I cuddle next to him which only started about 4 months ago ... diet hahahah I just stopped binging and purging ... I fee out of control and my friend Karl who lives in California who is cheating on his wife for 2 years pretty much wanted me to text the guy or something so I can be in his position so my dumb *** text him and now here it goes and me and my husband have been doing better since he came out and told me and his family he had been making me miserable on purpose for the last 2 years because I'm a free spirit and I'm pretty and then he came out and told me he has a porn addiction since he was 12 and I asked him why did you not tell me before we got married , he said because you would not have married me and I would not have honestly because I grew up in foster homes and group homes and have been touched by the men and I hate nudity, not with a person one on one in real life but I'm very sensual , I don't like that stuff , and he knew that ... here is a pic of me so we are not strangers lolIMG_1349.jpg
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Feb 15, 2017, 11:11 PM
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I got the call today and he changed my meds up |
| Wander
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