[Flutterby11]

i am so depressed right now it has been building the last week but i cant stop thinking about hurting myself and i am a total mess

[Flutterby11]

i am getting paranoid again too about everything i really dont feel good. i want to cry i have ruined everything and i cant fix it i feel like my only option is to hurt myself.

[Naynay99]

Hey. I am sorry you are struggling. I wish I had some wise words to give you comfort. But just know that I'm listening and I hear you. I have felt that kind of pain and it seems intolerable.

Can you find something to distract yourself. Or put that idea on hold, even just for 1 day. Go back to worrying about it tomorrow, when maybe things will look different?

If it gets to be too much, call someone. A hotline, your doctor, a friend. Reach out for some live help. I know that is easier to say than to do. But please do whatever you need to stay safe. Hang in there. You are not alone. ((Hugs))

[Flutterby11]

Right now I can't tell anyone how I am feeling it is too risky because I have too much to do. I just literally have no idea what to do anymore. All I know is it hurts a lot right now.

[Flutterby11]

I think this is it I can't do this anymore it hurts too much and I am not that strong.

[Bunnny888]

Hiiii dont demotivate yourself buddy for every problem there is a solution instead of going in negative way be posiyive stayed motivated make good friends share your problems you feel very relax when you share start diverting your mind do exercise play games and please be positive god bless u buddy i hope you will alright

[Wander]

Hang in there. It will pass. It must be awful feeling so bad. Wish I could help.

[Flutterby11]

i am trying it just hurts so so much

[Bunnny888]

Divert yourself..... I know its difficult... Be self motivated

[Flutterby11]

i have tried my mental health worker but no reply i am really not coping right now.

[Cocosurviving]

There should be some local help lines in each area. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-TALK [8255]) is the United States based suicide prevention network of 161 crisis centers, that provides a 24/7, toll-free hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress. After dialing 1-800-273-TALK (8255), the caller is routed to their nearest crisis center to receive immediate counseling and local mental health referrals. The Lifeline supports people who call for themselves or someone they care about. I wish you the best

[Flutterby11]

i tried a helpline yesterday they said they couldnt help me.... maybe no one can maybe i should just give up

[luvyrself]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

i tried a helpline yesterday they said they couldnt help me.... maybe no one can maybe i should just give up

-----Take a walk in nature, best with a friend. If you are anywhere near the ocean, go there NOW. It's so healing. It's Easter, it's spring, the season of renewal. Make a goal of how you want to feel and break down how you intend to get there into baby steps. YOU CAN DO IT! You have done this before!
Busy? Put some things off. Nothing is as important as your stability. If your counselor won't answer, go there in person and ask to be seen as an emergency. Don't take no for an answer. Go to the emergency room if necessary.
You are a valuable person! We are with you!

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

I think this is it I can't do this anymore it hurts too much and I am not that strong.

Im sorry you're feeling so bad. Are you alone? It sounds like you need help being safe. If you're not safe, the ER is where I go to.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

i tried a helpline yesterday they said they couldnt help me.... maybe no one can maybe i should just give up

Never give up. You know why? How you feel right now is temporary. It WILL pass because bipolar disorder always cycles.

I think you need to go to the hospital and they can stabilize you. You'll be safe and get to feeling much better fast.

[Flutterby11]

i am trying to avoid that at all costs at the moment i just need to make it 2 more weeks

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you are hurting so badly. You're not alone. Please hold on. You're too important and you are worth it. I'm here if you need to talk. It will get better. What happens in two weeks? Have you done the text line 741 741 and typed hello? They are good with useful resources.

[Flutterby11]

2 weeks is when i see my useless pdoc i am sorry about all the negativity just my doctor is really annoying me right now.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

2 weeks is when i see my useless pdoc i am sorry about all the negativity just my doctor is really annoying me right now.

I gotcha. The negativity is quite alright. I would be annoyed too if my pdoc appointment was in 2 weeks and they have no options set up for emergencies. Who does that? I don't have any advice but I'm here. You're not alone.

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I gotcha. The negativity is quite alright. I would be annoyed too if my pdoc appointment was in 2 weeks and they have no options set up for emergencies. Who does that? I don't have any advice but I'm here. You're not alone.

it isnt just that either the other thing annoying me is that i am 99% sure once i get to the appointment they will not even be of any help.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

2 weeks is when i see my useless pdoc i am sorry about all the negativity just my doctor is really annoying me right now.

Be prepared and take a list of symptoms and other things that are bothering you to the appointment so they can hopefully help you. It sounds like your anti-psychotic isn't working. You should not have to live like this. I really hope you can find good help.

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Wander

Be prepared and take a list of symptoms and other things that are bothering you to the appointment so they can hopefully help you. It sounds like your anti-psychotic isn't working. You should not have to live like this. I really hope you can find good help.

my antipsychotic never worked and i have told the doctor that many times but they simply dont care. i need a new doctor but it will probably take months to find a good one.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Flutterby11

my antipsychotic never worked and i have told the doctor that many times but they simply dont care. i need a new doctor but it will probably take months to find a good one.

Start your search for a new pdoc now then. I had a terrible pdoc and it took me about 2.5 months to get a new one. My new one is great so it was well worth the effort and wait.

[Mysterious_Lion]

See depression as a wave in the sea, fight and ride it till you back up again. It sucks even journal writing thoughts might help? If you feel getting worse call a councillor or crisis line?

[Flutterby11]

Originally Posted by Wander

Start your search for a new pdoc now then. I had a terrible pdoc and it took me about 2.5 months to get a new one. My new one is great so it was well worth the effort and wait.

yeah i have started looking it is just tough.