[Moon Lotus]

Hello Everyone,
I don’t know if I needed to post here or in the emotions forum. I’ve been having things going on. Lately, I’ve been seesawing between being angry and sad. Today, I don’t know what I am. Thoughts and other things are swirling in my head. I just feel weird inside. Yesterday, I had a case of the hives for which my pdoc prescribed Vistaril. I’m beginning to think I get them when I’m manic. I took the Vistaril and cried for most of the day. I don't think they're related. I haven’t slowed down like I do when I’m depressed. It’s like everything is going at once, like cats running about with flaming paper bags tied to their tails. Please forgive me if this post sounds jumbled. I feel like my insides are squirming, and I see things. Darkness drips from things like slime. I take my meds like I was supposed to. Aren’t they supposed to help? Maybe I should stop taken them outright. Maybe I’ll feel better. I’ve been feeling like this for almost a month, and I’ve fractured relationships. I want my old self back, whoever that is.

[RainyDay107]

Hi Moon, welcome to the forum....I see that you're new.

If you've been feeling this way for a month - call your pdoc (psychiatrist). Describe how you feel and say you need an early appointment.

For secondary support, I'd call your T (therapist).

I hope you can get appointment(s) ASAP to feel better soon.

[Unrigged64072835]

You should get ahold of a psychiatrist. They can help you with this.

[Wander]

I agree, seeing a psychiatrist will help you work out what is going on and a treatment plan. Don't go off all your meds, it will only make things worse as your body freaks out without them.

It sounds really difficult to experience. Do you have friends/family you can call on for support? Or a therapist? Welcome to the forums. Please keep posting as you need. You will find support here.

[Moon Lotus]

Thanks, I called my pdoc today. Hopefully, she'll get in touch with me soon. I appreciate you all for listening.