Being too stable gives me suicidal thoughts. What about you?

When I become so "stable" that I can't feel any emotion, I see no sense in living if there is nothing to be enjoyed. I rather be susceptible to mood swings, because at least I have some opportunity to enjoy life.

You?

[hahayeahtotallylol]

I feel this way as well. Even anger, i'd rather experience than mindlessness.

[cmorales]

About a year and a half after I first started meds I was so "stable" ("stable," over-medicated, whatever) that I didn't know who I was anymore. Basically I had an identity crisis. To go from 15 years without treatment to "suddenly" being stable threw me waaay off. I was so used to the instability of it all, I found I really didn't like stability that much because it almost didn't feel real. Fact is, I need the occasional episode just to feel like a real, live person... or, at least to feel like myself.

If someone can't feel emotion, then I don't really consider that stable. It may appear like stability on the outside, but part of being a stable human is being able to experience various emotions in a healthy way. Even so called "bad" emotions, such as anger or fear.

[~Christina]

There is a difference with " stable" and being " flat"

" typically " if you're stable you won't be thinking suicidal all that much.

Overmedicated or actually heading into a episode often is overlooked by people , just a thought.

Feel better

[IntentOnHealing]

I don't think that lacking emotion is actually equivalent to being "too stable." It sounds like you might want to talk to your pdoc about a meds change. Or possibly your therapist to get to the bottom of WHY you are so flat?

I experienced this last summer. Flat as a pancake. It wasn't that I had no emotions. It was that I had SO MANY emotions, I was overwhelmed. So my brain/psyche just shut them down for me.

[bioChE]

I agree that overmedicated needs to be addressed. There are times when I've been on so much medication that I couldn't feel a thing. People on the outside looking in had absolutely no idea how bad it was. Since I wasn't going off the deep end doing crazy things, they assumed all was good.

But it's a horrible place to be.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bioChE

I agree that overmedicated needs to be addressed. There are times when I've been on so much medication that I couldn't feel a thing. People on the outside looking in had absolutely no idea how bad it was. Since I wasn't going off the deep end doing crazy things, they assumed all was good.

But it's a horrible place to be.

Both when I was on Celexa and Zyprexa (early into it) I felt emotionally and mentally numb. I felt I had no emotions at all. It was an odd sensation.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi Blue,

The "numbness" you describe isn't indicative of being stable while feeling a healthy range of emotions. Life is full of emotions. "Stability" is holding steady while feeling a range of emotions.

Meds and/or moods, reactions to some life events, can cause us to feel "numb."
Sometimes, I can withdraw emotionally in response to feelings about life (including grief/sadness/disappointment, etc.).

Do you know why you are feeling so "numb?"

I hope you feel better soon.


WC

[franz kafka]

If you're having suicidal thoughts, I wouldn't call that stable. I'm stable right now and I feel happy and productive. Feeling like my emotions are overly flattened out sounds more like being overmedicated or low-grade depression.

[wiretwister]

when I am (too) stable ... I play with my meds ... I can not stop myself ... I have done it several times ... I believe I just get bored ...

That doesn't sound stable. That sounds flat and/or depressed.

[bioChE]

Blue, have you found any relief?

[CherryGlazer]

Like what someone mentioned before me - there's a difference between being stable and flat.

But I have noticed one negative side of stability - I take less risks and depend on other people less. Which is a good thing, but I still miss the intensity that made my life interesting.