If you could take back the #1 worst thing you did when manic, what would it be?

If you could take back the #1 *worst* thing you did when manic, what would it be? (Interpret "worst" however you want.)

Me-- Cut someone off on the highway pretty badly when driving into Boston. The highway split into two directions, with LARGE metal rail dividers in between them that would kill you if you hit it head on. One side goes to the left to go to downtown Boston and the other goes straight toward Red Sox stadium (Fenway Park). Well, I sped up to 110 mph and cut across 3 lanes in the span of 1 second, just baaaarely missing the divider and just baaaarely missing the person. Then I sped up and passed everyone on the right after the lanes had already merged, almost scraping my brand new car against the concrete walls and almost hitting 5 people. I almost sh_t my pants after that after realizing what I did.

I self injured pretty badly. Ended up with a bunch of stitches and got into a huge fight with my husband about it. If I could take back all the pain I caused him from hurting myself I would.

Lost 2 jobs after some intense outbursts, the first being the most money I've ever made and would have kept my family very comfortable and the second just this Monday. I used to be able to pay all my bills with a commission and then live pretty comfortably and now I'm desperately looking for even minimum wage to keep the lights on and put food on the table.

Tried to commit suicide while home alone with my daughter.

I want the money I spent back. (Because I really, really need it now... )

Spent my whole vacation thinking my husband and family were planing on taking away my son. We had to cut the trip short and couldn't enjoy the trip at all.

I arranged to have sex with my best friend's wife. Thank god I didn't go through with it!

Woah.

I told one of my best friends ever that he was inferior sexually and went on to detail just WHY that was (even though we've never had sex, to date. Well, not really.). I just went on and on and on about it. He didn't understand why I was being so unkind to him.

walked out on my job, stole money from my job, left my family and drove cross country to be a professional gambler

Making my husband work long hours on this house so we could sell it and move to Montana. He did a good job but the contractors he hired off of Angie's List sucked big time. Then we ended up moving back in anyway.

Chasing after someone else's husband. Ick. I just can't believe I did that. But at the time it felt so logical.

Having a full-blown manic episode while working as Director of Health Services for an assisted living company. I was literally dancing in the hallways, laughing hysterically during staff meetings, couldn't keep my mind on any one thing for longer than an instant, let alone do any work...I was a hot mess, and I was enjoying the hell out of it. A short time after this I was out of the best job I ever had, and it all went downhill from there.

Almost 25 years ago full blown manic episode with psychosis almost ruined my career as an ophthalmologist. Somehow I find myself the treatment and cope with bouts.

One of mine would relate to a car and driving too. I had been in Paris staying at the Westin Hotel (obviously) and had bought a BMW on ebay. The car was in Newcastle, in the north of England. I flew over, picked it up and without having anything checked or changing the registration or getting insurance I drove it down to London. I was in such a hurry I remember flying down the M1 - sometimes hitting 100mph. It was night-time by the time I got to London and raining.

I'd also like some of the money back - as someone else said. I blew about 50 grand that trip in a few weeks on very silly things. I spent 10 thousand just on gold jewellery in Bali just because I was convinced it would be a good investment.

At this point, I think the thing I'd like most is all my money back so I can get rid of all this debt.

Oh man too many embarrassing shameful things while hypomanic. One right up there would have been being obnoxious in front of my inlaws.
I'd also like the money back I spent on all that tasteless lingerie (which always ends up in the garbage). And I'm super grateful my husband has never agreed to take me to vegas while hypomanic even though I think I desperately want to go and for all the bad reasons. (I've never been but sin city just seemed like the place to be when hypo..at that time).

Like others here, I would love to have all my money back.!! I sometimes spend on senseless things. And I wish I could take back the times I quite school mid semester, because I wouldn't be paying out of pocket for 1 and 2, I WOULD BE FINISHED BY NOW.!