[Crook32]

So lately my anxiety has been really high and uncomfortable. I haven't been sleeping well for the passed two weeks. So last night I took 3 extra klonopin before bed. I knew I shouldn't have but was surprised and how easy it was. I was very tempted to take more. A friend I was texting with convinced me not to and told me to call my T. Part of our safety plan is for me to reach out to her if I feel like I have intent. So I texted her and waited for the call back.

She wanted to assess if this was the start of an attempt and if she should send me to the hospital. We talked for a bit and she even talked to my wife. Then she called my pdoc and we did a conference call. Mind you this is all around 10:30 last night. So they both decided that it wasn't an attempt. That I was just trying to deal with the anxiety and sleep. They told my wife to take my pills away, which she hasn't, and to drink lots of water.

I am thankful for a treatment team that is willing to take time and assess the situation. Because getting dragged to the hospital over 3 extra klonopin would have sucked. My T is worried that as we were talking that the klonopin wasn't seeming to affect me. My pupils were pinpoints but I was acting fine. She is worried about me becoming addicted.

I always worry about following the safety plan because I fear that it will end up with me in the hospital.

[Wild Coyote]

Wow! You are very fortunate to have such a good team and such a rapid response from them!

You and your wife didn't see a real need for your wife to hold your klonopin?

Anxiety can become overwhelming and quickly so. Most people want an adequate remedy asap. I don't think your response was unusual or alarming.

Maybe you and your T can work on some techniques to help with anxiety, so the remedy isn't based 100% on increased medication? Or have you exhausted that route?

I am glad you are okay!


WC

[Sunflower123]

I second that. That was a quick and excellent response from your support team. I sometimes take more than prescribed because my anxiety is so high but it's not an attempt. I'm glad you're ok.

[lilypup]

I've done this and no, it wasn't an attempt at all. It takes quite a few Klonopin to really "knock me out" and put me to sleep.
I've been feeling real bad and have been taking more than I should the last week or so. I don't think it's a huge deal, except that I eventually will run out. I've gotten off it before...just tapered down over a few weeks and it was fine. But I think I'll always need it for meltdowns and high anxiety situations.

[Crook32]

Thanks. Yes I am very fortunate to have the treatment team I have. I have been with my pdoc for about 12 years and my T for 3. They are trying to get me to expand my support network.

I always worried about the day that I will lose on of them. They work hard to keep me functioning and I worry about wearing them out one day.

But yes I would not call 3 klonopin an attempt but it was my desire and inhibition to take more that had everyone worried. I am just thankful that they are not quick to overreact.

[Unrigged64072835]

Glad that your team worked for you.

Did your pdoc mention something else for the anxiety? Klonopin is okay for short-term anxiety, but not something you want to be on for the long term.

[Crook32]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Glad that your team worked for you.

Did your pdoc mention something else for the anxiety? Klonopin is okay for short-term anxiety, but not something you want to be on for the long term.

No he hasn't mentioned anything yet but after this he probably will. I see him in two weeks.

[Crook32]

Today has been really triggering me. The thoughts of taken more meds than I should are coming more often and easier. It is probably a good thing I am at work right now so I can do anything dumb. But the pain is crushing me. I am being flooded with feelings.