[Crook32]

I just had two drinks tonight for the first time in like 10-12 years. Not sure why I even did it. I guess I was somewhat responsible though because I skipped my klonopin so that I didn't mix the two. But was it an even trade? I probably would have done better today with the klonopin than the alcohol. Why do we do these little self sabotages? Even though we know better as we are doing them.

[liveforsummer]

That's a very big question and one that I surely cannot answer. I do kinda think self sabotage is a part of human nature at times and not necessarily exclusive to MI.
The human condition is a myriad of complexities, too many without understanding or explanation.

[raspberrytorte]

I'm great at self sabotaging. I do it a lot. I don't have an answer as to why unfortunately.

[Sunflower123]

I have no answer to that but I'm pretty bad at self sabotaging as well.

[Kuras]

Many people with BP tend to excel at self-sabotage, particularly during mania. What's important if/when it happens is what we do about it.

[bioChE]

Alcohol use is a slippery slope, at least for me. 1 is good, 2 is better.....until we get to the point where 8 is not enough. I get euphoria and happiness, and love to be plastered. Then I wake up and want to do it again, which eventually leads to all sorts of problems.

If you're not a drinker, I'd suggest you just leave it out of your life. There's always the possibility of it interfering with your BP meds.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by bioChE

Alcohol use is a slippery slope, at least for me. 1 is good, 2 is better.....until we get to the point where 8 is not enough. I get euphoria and happiness, and love to be plastered. Then I wake up and want to do it again, which eventually leads to all sorts of problems.

If you're not a drinker, I'd suggest you just leave it out of your life. There's always the possibility of it interfering with your BP meds.

That sounds just like me and thats why I choose not to drink.

[benzenering]

I've never thought of my drinking as self-sabotage, just a way out. Something to ponder...

[Unrigged64072835]

I have the same issue with food, except I can't just not eat. It's making my blood sugar do loops.

I think inside there's a rebellious three-year old who wants to smash the dishes and eat all the candy. It's like why do I have to follow all these rules? I usually can hold her down but sometimes she slips through.