[thom2297]

After a careful review, I now realize I have been in a deep depression for 30 months (2.5 years – Since Jan. 2015). I also realize that I have only been fully functional for about 9 months out of the 30 months. I have come to the realization that it takes me longer to get things done. Over the last 30 months, I’ve accomplished the following:

1. Finished school with my first Master’s Degree in December of 2014.
2. Started a Business in March of 2015
3. Formed a nonprofit 501c3 and served one client in late 2014 and 2015.

I’ve been in the hospital twice over the 30 months with bouts of mania and psychosis. My combined hospital stay has been about a month. For 21 months, I’ve mainly slept and stayed in bed. It is hard for me to shower, dress and face the world.The medicine I’m currently on makes me feel stagnated. I accomplished those three things while being primarily off my meds. I am struggling to find the right mix of meds that will allow me to function better. I have a new pdoc with counselors that come out to the house twice a week. So, that is a plus.

I think I can be hopeful about dealing with the depression better. I have a pdoc appointment coming up and I want to be able to tell her what is going on with me. There are some things I want to do. I want to:

1. Start and complete a 2nd Masters Degree
2. Build my business further
3. Build my nonprofit further

Some say I am aiming too high but with the right support system, I think I can do it. If I can just manage to pull myself up by the bootstraps.

[Wild Coyote]

Wow! Counselors come to your home?

I hope you find the right med cocktail.
Pulling ourselves up by the bootstraps, without the right meds, wears thin after awhile (if we can do it at all).

Congrats on your first masters degree.
I think your goals are admirable. I hope all works out in your best interest!


WC

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having a tough time but so impressed with what you've accomplished. Congrats on your Masters and starting a business!!! That's tough for anyone one especially one struggling with depression.

WOW. I wish I had the option of counselors coming to my house. That's great. I hope they get you hooked up with a med combo that works for you.

[thom2297]

Yes. The counselors coming to the house is a blessing . The last time I was hospitalized the doctors recommended it. I didn't know that such a service existed.

[Unrigged64072835]

Having goals is a good thing, but burying yourself with anxiety is not, especially since depression makes those things harder to accomplish.

You might need a different med. I had to go through a few before I found one that doesn't make me groggy.

[Big Mama]

What is life with out a dream. We all need a purpose. A purpose gives us a reason to get up in the morning and push threw the hard stuff. Good for you of setting such a high standard. Set the standard high and you will achieve great things.