I'm a failure; everyone has given up on me?

I think my psychiatrist is about to give up on me because I contact him too much for his own liking. Literally, I can't go more than two weeks without calling him for help.

I'm so mentally unstable and I feel like I'm not getting the help I need, therapy or medication wise. Maybe it's my fault, or maybe the system has failed me, or maybe both. I'm not sure.

I have no one to talk to IRL about my issues, so I rely heavily on my therapist and psychiatrist for help. However, I think I annoy them to the point they just get exhausted and don't know what to do with me. It makes me feel hopeless. I actually feel like asking them if they're about to give up on me.

I'm sorry you are feeling that way. Why don't you bring your concern up with them in order to ease your mind? Good luck.

You may need IOP or PHP for a while so you can get the support to get stable.

MM has a good point. IOP often has hours in the evening for those who work. Not only would you be getting more intense help you would be meeting others who work and jungle their mi as well.

Hey blue, sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Contacting your psychiatrist every two weeks is not excessive in my mind. You can certainly ask him if it is too much for him to handle. Years ago when I was first getting a handle on BP, I saw my psychiatrist every week.

For the record, you are not a failure. I know it doesn't sound real when I say it, but it's the truth. You're a strong young woman, who is very accomplished academically. You have a stressful professional job, and it's not easy to balance BP and a tough job. Believe me, I live it every day of my life. You're getting on your feet financially, have a good car, are paying off student loans, and live in a fiscally responsible situation with your parents and grandmother. That's a lot for anyone to handle, much less for someone who is recently out of school.

You are doing well. I realize it's difficult to feel right now, but it is the truth. You can't see it, but everyone else can. We're rooting for you. Get the help you need, any way possible. There's a chance that PHP/IOP would be helpful, or you could even consider a short IP stay. I've personally never liked or benefitted from PHP/IOP, but have been successful with IP multiple times. Use the system that is there for you. You're paying a lot of money for your insurance, and this is the time to put that to use. You might also consider a support group through DBSA or NAMI. I'm sure they're active in Boston.

Best of luck to you. I really feel for you at the moment, and wish the best outcome whatever that might be.

Hugs blue!! I'm sorry your struggling right now. We are all here for you

What a wonderful post BioChe made and it's so perfectly true. Please listen to those wise words. You are not a failure and you are worth so much more than you can give yourself credit for right now. Your illness is deceiving you. We are here for you and will listen. (((Hugs)))

You are not a failure. You should feel confident that you can contact therapists and medical professionals as often as you need to. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate and you appear to be handling the stress of it all quite admirably.

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Great post by bioChe! I agree!
You're very impressive, blue. I have great admiration for you.

I also agree with Jennifer's suggestion you talk this over with your care providers.

I hope you are having a good evening.


WC

(((((Blue)))))

You've got a lot of stressors right now with work and family. It's tough, no doubt about it.

You're not a failure. I mean, you're courageous enough to admit you need more help. Lots of people don't do that and suffer alone.

Do you have support groups in your area? Maybe meet some people IRL who would understand what you're going through. It could help.