[xRavenx]

I'm feeling extremely depressed. It's not even situational anymore, although I feel bad that all of the sudden I'm pushing people away. I don't mean to, it's just that I am lacking energy and feel super sad. Usually, I'm the one others can always count on. I've reached my breaking point, and I feel bad about it. I hate letting others down when I am feeling this way. I keep crying, I can barely eat, I don't see anything getting better.

Then there's paranoia that people are going to give up on me or are mad at me, since it's hard for me to be "there" for them in the way that I want to be. I think on and off I've had these feelings that others have the intention to hurt me in some way recently. Maybe there's a little paranoia involved, or my way of protecting myself. I'm having very self-destructive thoughts now aimed towards myself that are really intense. I have even thought about IP, but I really want to avoid it, if I can. I don't know how to get rid of the feeling so horrible about myself. Where do I even begin?

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much. Don't hesitate to go IP if you have to - even a quick stay can make a big difference.

I know you want to stay out of IP though if possible, so what are some healthy activities you can do to help your mood? It can be something as small as taking a relaxing bubble bath or doing a quick workout, taking care of your mind and body is so important. Feel free to PM me if you ever want to chat or just vent. I hope you are feeling better soon.

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by scaredandconfused

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much. Don't hesitate to go IP if you have to - even a quick stay can make a big difference.

I know you want to stay out of IP though if possible, so what are some healthy activities you can do to help your mood? It can be something as small as taking a relaxing bubble bath or doing a quick workout, taking care of your mind and body is so important. Feel free to PM me if you ever want to chat or just vent. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Thank you, Scaredandconfused. I just took a Klonopin. My heart is beating so fast. This is the worst I've felt in a long time.

[hopeless2015]

I'm so sorry, I know I have a hard time fighting the irrational thoughts as well. I was really depressed last week and thought everyone hated me or was mad or upset with me. I wish I had words of wisdom. Just know it will pass. If you feel you need ip please go to the ER. Sending big hugs your way!!

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

I'm so sorry, I know I have a hard time fighting the irrational thoughts as well. I was really depressed last week and thought everyone hated me or was mad or upset with me. I wish I had words of wisdom. Just know it will pass. If you feel you need ip please go to the ER. Sending big hugs your way!!

Thank you. I wish I could speed up time, or go back to a time where I didn't feel this bad. Sorry you had to go through those feelings last week. (((hugs)))