Worst episode you survived

What was your worst episode you can remember and how long where you out of society? Mine was my recent epiosde of mania, lost friends, money, bike, job and had to move back in with my mom. I was out for 6 months!

I just came off a year mania. Ive had a pattern of these long manias the last 5 years or so and going totally delusional. Ive lost credibility with friends, former colleagues, and others all over the world.

I have acquired massive personal debt, with a good chunk to a friend. Ive had a lot of SI lately but feel this friend debt will keep me alive cause I can knock it off in a year to two if focused and keep from doing something to escape.

Psychotic break that eventually put me in a hospital. I was bashing my head and my body against concrete walls, yelling, rambling, fighting the urge and voices telling me to kill myself, and all kinds of fun stuff like that. Had the police called on me. I wasn't properly medicated at this time.

suicide attempt which very nearly took my life.

it happened over christmas, and though I remember very little about it, I do remember that 1 night when all my vital signs just plummeted, the hospital called a priest to come and bless me because no one thought i'd make it through the night, not even the doctors or any of the staff

14 months of depression and barely being alive, I did not leave my room unless I needed the bathroom or my brother made me (some days he would insist I spend 10 minutes in the garden in the sunshine)...

Didn't work, lost my bf and my friends, was horrible.

I got them back eventually though, which is cool.

I went through about 3 months mixed right before I was diagnosed. Severe depression, severe anxiety, energy, racing thoughts, lots of SH, severe SI, with noise sensitivity and feeling things weren't real, seeing bugs out of the corner of my eye, tactile hallucinations, etc. Then it was mostly depression for several months after that. I think it took around 8 months total or so to stabilize. Yeah fun.

Also as a teen, I had a depression that lasted 3 years, drug on by alcohol abuse and family member that was a constant trigger. That was pretty bad too.

Literally, Seroquel withdrawal when I wasn't taking Adderall. That was a 10/10 depression. I had never felt any depression so severe, so painful. I came VERY CLOSE to sui... but I had to keep reminding myself "this is all med induced; it is withdrawal. This is all med induced; it is withdrawal. ..."

After a manic episode magnified by Adderall, I crashed harder then I ever did, and when I was switched to antidepressants some time later it went mixed (i was not diagnosed at the time with bipolar).

I thought people were out to get me, I had certain beliefs that didn't make sense. There were times when I lost the ability to understand language. People would talk to me and all I'd hear was gibberish out of their mouths and everything was terrifying. I constantly felt like I was in danger. Apparently I was not talking coherently myself, which got me hospitalized in the end. But it took 7 months before someone noticed.

Sometimes my mind would race, I'd have all of these grand ideas - but physically i'd be exhausted - I stayed in my room, didn't eat, didn't want to get up, peed my pants sometimes (mix of worsening health and not being able to take care of myself).

Other times physically i'd pace around my room or pace around outside for hours, and people would ask me if I was okay. Couldn't sleep couldn't slow down physically, but mentally I was depressed, and deviod of thought.

Before it was either Manic or Depressed, never a mix of both at the same time, and never for so long. I honestly still can't make sense of that **** show.

I got diagnosed right after, put on the right meds, went into symptom remission. I try not to think about it.

Two overdoses and holding a fire arm to my head

When I was 18 I fell into a depression that bounced back and forth from depression to mixed with no stability in between. It lasted for about a year. I was hospitalized 7 times and in partial hospital for all the time I wasn't in inpatient. I drove my boyfriend at the time away with my constant suicidal gestures and self injury. I needed medical intervention for my self injury several times. It culminated in an impulsive suicide attempt about two months after my boyfriend left me. If I hadn't felt guilty and told my mom what I'd done I wouldn't be here today. I spent two days in ICU and three days in medical hospital before I went to the psych ward for seven weeks. There I received ECT for the first time and honestly it saved my life. I was able to go to a women's trauma program after that and focus on the trauma of my childhood finally and get through some tough stuff in therapy.

My symptoms didn't return for six years. I've had some bad episodes since then but nothing as self destructive as that year in my life. I'm still amazed that I made it out alive. I was hell bent on killing myself in some way, be it drinking or self injury.

spent a year and a half in a constant psychotic state. ended with my therapist calling the police on me and having me committed to the hospital where i got put on a AP injection. that was christmas 2012

Oh wow that sounds scary do you remember anything you did? And what's a AP injection?

I remember some things, yeah

An anti psychotic injection. That I got monthly

I was hearing voices all the time. Nonstop. Not sleeping not eating. Pretty delusional about cults and cameras in my home.. Etc

Oh man that sounds rough how are you holding up now?

Every episode I've had has been pretty horrible in its own right....each one feels worse than the last or like it's the worst one ever. I don't know which has been the worst, they all just suck. Episodes with delusions are the worst of all.

Actually my worst episode was manic. I received my disability and decided we were moving to Montana and build a modular home. Which ran into spending 16+ hour days creating a prom dress for my daughter. Which ran into starting a writing course and thinking I was going to write the best science fiction series ever....

Then I had my Lamictal adjusted.

I'm so glad my husband didn't divorce me over that time.

Doing better than I was then!! Thanks for asking